楚涵Jes

So much feelings but I can't write out =(

2012-02-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

photos of new house

2012-02-04T14:00:00.015+08:00

i promised to upload my new house photos but i was too lazy xD now here are some of the photos.they are not complete but i am so lazy to capture my house.so please do forgive me=p

if you wish to know how is my house look,you may visit me=D of course only for my friends,hehe.

the end of cny=(

2012-02-04T13:40:00.006+08:00

some of the photos of cny:

next wednesday reopen college.i am going to start my semester 3 soon=( i am so reluctant to go back to college.how i wish that i can stay in my holiday forever TT reason?except the stress of facing assignments,tests and examinations,of course there is a big reason that cause me not feel like going to college.sigh.if you can guess the reason correctly i just can say that u are so smart and understand me so much=DD however,i am not going to say here=) there is a strong feeling telling me that i will be emo always after i go back to my college life.i dont want TT i dont want to be attacked by sadness again=(

sometimes i dont know whether my decision is right.

belated 2012 new year resolution

2012-01-30T00:53:00.002+08:00

i am here to update my blog again=DD only when semester break i have so much time for me to update my blog.lol.

i am so enjoy with my holidays and cny.i am busy everyday and get to meet with my buddies besties sisters.i appreciate the moment that i spent with them!

i just want to say loudly that,I AM FINE NOW.i am optimistic now=) let go for those who are not deserved for my love towards them.i told myself: i wont find you automatically again once i find you so many times but never get some responses from you.i am glad that i dont get so much hurt anymore since i know to comfort myself well.and the support from MIAO.really a big big thanks to my sweetheart.i can tell her every single thing,my deepest feeling cause she is so trustable and sayang me=) in 2012,i know who are important friends for me while who are not.who will never forget me and find me whenever they are free.so do i.when i am free i will find them immediately.

i am contented with my life.my life is full of family and friends love.

it is midnight again and i am still awake here=( i want to change this bad habits(sleep late wake late)

belated 2012 new year resolution:

1.do not worsen my eyesight ANYMORE

2.do not trust and care someone easily

3.getting a balance in academic and entertainment

4.do not have a relationship or fall in love with someone

5.having a good relationship with my family members

6.do not eat so much especially chocolate

7.being optimistic all the time and smile always

8.taking a good care of my damaged hair

9.keep in touch with my important friends

10.exercise more

11.save more money and do not simply spend my money

12.treat myself better

13.no more the malicious comments and actions towards me

14.sleep early wake early

15.JUST BE MYSELF

i love my hair

2012-01-24T01:50:00.006+08:00

i am so in love with my curly hair now since it is getting more natural=DD in the beginning,i hate my hair and felt regret to have such change.but now,i dont feel regret anymore and many people say that i look mature and dai gor lui edi.some of them like it so much.i am so happy to hear that=D actually i prefer straight hair but some of them say that curly hair suit me more.anyway,i am so grateful for the compliment and also i can ignore the bad comments from those who dislike it.i love my hair <3

i keep telling my friend my hairstyle look so similar with hebe,NOT THE FACE KAY==just the hairstyle la.but now it doesnt look like her hairstyle already,just before i wash it,it really look so similar with hers><

and now..dang dang!! this is my current hair.finally i show u all my hair,hehe.as what i promised,i will show you my hair when it become natural=)
today is chu 1,wish everyone happy chinese new year^^

i cherish the moment spent with wing and moon during the period of working.i can see wing everyday and chat with her.we had our supper:tomyam together after working.i am so happy to spend my time with her.love you<3 i still will find you always although i have moved into my new house.

had my reunion dinner with qing bi and her family.last time was with xuan family xD xiao bai join us too.after that we had a movie at jusco and gamble at xiao bai house.the best moment that i have is when i spend my time with my best friends=D

thats all for today.so far i am so satisfied with my 2012 by having besties around me^^

When there are more than one person in a group,I am sure is the one who be neglected.I am get used to it.

2012-01-22T01:20:00.002+08:00

弦子 - 舍不得

2012-01-16T00:47:00.000+08:00

a song introduced by my qing bi.it really touch my heart deeply.

2012-01-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

我看见了一个最有说服力的理由让我去放弃.是我太傻了,还是太天真.傻傻地等待一些改变,傻傻地期待未来.是我错了.就让我再为你伤心最后一次.这次真的要放下了.my friends,i really need your help so much.please awake me.stay with me at this tough moment.i need help.

new hairstyle

2012-01-15T23:01:00.006+08:00

i am having semester break now=DD suppose today i should hang out with friends and seek for my new year stuff but my stupid hair ruin my mood to go out TT i just dye and curl my hair.i cannot wash it for three days and it look so curl in the beginning.i cannot tahan now this look,i wish that these three days can pass faster so that i can see the real result of my hair as soon as possible.this is a big try in 2012 since i never thought that i will curl my hair someday O.O no matter how is the comment i get,i still will be proud of myself to make a brave decision and make a change for myself.ya.i need change.i dont want to be conservative and always walk at the original place.as i said,i want to try out something new.so i will continue trying more and more new things,hehe.

dont expect i will show u my curly hair photo.I WONT TT it is so ugly now although i feel ok after looking in the mirror for so many times,haha.i bet that you all cannot get used to it.i will only show u all after the curl become not so curl and natural.i spent RM500 on my hair,gek sim TT i am bankrupt now and so lucky that my friend ask me to work with her for five days start from tomorrow at one utama.i can chat with her and earn money at the same time,so good=D miss her lot lot!

i promise myself that 2012 wont be too emo but i am still feel sad these few days,lol.the new year just start right?== trying to find some close friends but they all seem like so busy or some dont even want to meet up with me,so sad=( actually i really feel disappointed to some friends.i did not say out but i can feel how you treat me.i will stop treating you good someday if you continue treating me in such way.I DISLIKE TO BE NEGLECTED when there are more than two persons in a gang.i am always be the one who is a superabundance.i dislike the feeling and i will just leave you.

i am not emo and i am happy.so dont say i am emo,hehe.i just feel a bit unhappy la due to many reasons.i talked to miao today,i told her ALL.all the feelings that make me feel uncomfortable.after saying out i still feel not ok actually.but i glad that at least there is someone listen to me.and she told me,I HAVE HER<3 i know,hehe.we face the same problem:we lose our confidence and dont know where to find it.haiz.those who are not very good but they have too much confidence and they can make you feel that you are a failure in front of them O.O i am indeed a failure to let them take away my confidence.trying to get it back.i am still trying....

i want to share some happy stuff but really nothing much to share.sad case== i realize that everytimes when i feel down helpless,i will annoy my gor although he not really want to choi me.i will talk nonstop and then he just continue doing his stuff== i just siok sendiri,lol.sometimes he will give some comments la when he is in a good mood.so actually i am really much much grateful.

yesterday chat with bi the whole night then listen to some sad songs TT the lyrics really make me crying nonstop TT i am still live in the past.i should step out from it.help me please TT i want to move on.someone drag me please.

INDEPENDENCE
TOUGHNESS
CONFIDENCE
COURAGE

i want to collect all these=)

before.straight and long long hair.really quite long already @@

after.change the whole hair.show u the fringe but not the back,hehe.i will show u next time xD the colour look more obvious in real person.actually i prefer darker but the colour come out a bit bright =(

i will upload my new house photos if i am free la,haha.i am too lazy.my new house is nice,hehe.i love it=D

Haiz.I still miss you.

2012-01-14T23:08:00.001+08:00

2011

2012-01-10T02:40:00.004+08:00

well,finally i finish my final exam for semester 2 and it really tortured me a lot.i had so much feeling to blog but ended up with hiding in my heart,because i have no time to blog.i am not a blogger like any other people.i write blog not for earning money,not for become famous,not for being followed.i write blog to express my feeling whenever i feel down,tats y my blog is full of sadness.sometimes i will post some happy events but mostly i am lazy to post it,haha.so actually i just blog by following my mood xD
today is 10 january 2012,around 2.30 a.m.i am sitting in front of my pc,many feelings come to in the night,every night,since two months ago.as usual,i wont type everything out clearly and you will never know what i am writing if u r not the person.i dont like to show everything to others.
i got to know a special friend,A,in the carnival.i have no much feeling towards A since i am really not interested to strangers,lol.i am lazy to type details,so,after a few months,i am so close with this friend.i think actually i dont understand A enough,i should get to know more about this friend but i did not.after May,many things happen that brought me a lot of tears,huge amount of tears.i cry always because of A.we have a gap.i tried so hard to across,i did,i really did.you should know that how many effort i have put into.you are the most important friend for me and you influence me much,influence everything of mine.i thought i have forgotten you this friend,i thought i have put down,let the past be the past,i thought i can act nothing and continue my life happily,i thought i am really happy.but why i am sitting here and cry heavily while typing all these.two months,i have tried to stop contact with you for two months.and my life really not full of tears anymore.i hate myself that i am still feel sad and feel the pain of my heart now.i felt heavy hearted to let go you this friend in the beginning,after that i felt angry whenever i think how you treat me and how u hurt me,i cnt afford the pain.in the end,means now,i realize that i feel sorrow.everytimes i ask myself,if i can accept ur behaviour,if you are not the person that will always do something hurt me,if we are compatible,how good it will be.you are good,you are not a bad person,i will never think you are bad because i know that you dont even know what you did actually can hurt me so much.this is just because of your personality,i cannot endure but maybe there is someone can.you are the first person who can influence me so much in my life.i am glad to know you.and thx for everything you did for me.i know you also put a lot of effort to change.this is not the ending that we want but it happens.so i will look forward,i am waiting for a better future and you still are the friend that i will never forget.
2011 was a good year on the whole,at least better than 2010 since 2010 was really a sucks year for me.although 2011 i still will feel emo(actually it is normal la xD) i am still happy that those friends who stay for me.i am touched that you all never leave me until today.those who have left just let them go.i appreciate the remaining who never abandon me.my secondary school buddies,although i cnt spend too much time with you,i never never never forget you and miss you always,believe me=)
in college,actually i still feel so lonely.i have a group of friends who always play together but they like having their own small gang inside.sometimes i feel that i am isolated.its ok,i get used to be alone in college since the first day of college.i like to go library not because i am so in love with study.whenever i feel lonely,that is the place which can secure me.nobody will look at me with the weird expression in library.i can enjoy the loneliness.i can even cry there,hahaha.nobody will realize it.last semester,i am so lucky that i met the zhi zang family who really take care of me much and accompany me.especially rong wei,i am really thankful to you.thanks for your consideration and knowing that i am so afraid of being alone and knowing that i will feel insecured easily.this semester i cnt join my zhi zang family since our timetable not match but i met another two good guys again,haha.sometimes i really think that i am lucky enough.i get to close with them when i did my ITS assignment.without their help,i think i will not be able to complete it.and they really sayang me=)
i just hope that everything will go smoothly this year.i want to experience more and more things this year.sometimes i really hope that i am not a guai guai lui TT

conclude the 2011,i want to thx all my love who supports me and always stand by my side and helped me when i faced difficulties:
baba
mama
gorgor
didi

miao
kher chin
wing
sin hui
kah kah
hui xuan
alice
riing
siew wei
yen fang
soo wai
kar yen
mun yee
xiao ying
joee

jia yao
avarta
ubi
kok eng
rong wei
voon bing
wei zai
colby
maverick
sebastian
tallman
ah b
han leek
ka hou
thiam soon
wei lon
wai luen
kardin

and some friends that always cheer me in fb message or in my blog or through phone:
hui yee
eminey
teik nan
bhinber
yan zheng
college classmates

i wish that my 2012 is a happy and blissful year=D
HAPPY NEW YEAR hahaha

i will just look forward and keep moving on.

有時候只是真心地對朋友也變得這麼復雜，原來這也是種錯

2011-12-28T13:17:00.002+08:00

group 28

2011-12-09T15:42:00.003+08:00

其实,我真的真的真的很不喜欢每次一派成绩,你们就一个一个轮流跑来问我分数,我忍了了一个又一个,今天也是那样,我自己心情已经很不好了,既然你们看得出,为什么还是坚持要问我分数,我真的很烦.我的分数有那么重要吗,高低又能对你们有什么影响.一开始,我本来不介意你们问我分数,我觉得这没什么好隐瞒的,可是我忍受不了你们知道了分数,在背后的比较,还有闲言闲语,我说的不包括我的朋友,但是如果你是其中一个在拿我分数比较的人,我就是在说你.其实知道了又怎么样,你会好过点吗?你们达到自己的要求不就好了,为什么要跑来给我施加一堆莫名其妙的压力,我本来可以很开心的,为什么要和我比较.我很不喜欢被比较,所以现在的我很不想让你们知道我的分数,可是我不懂怎么拒绝.今天,我不满意我的成绩,我不出声,你们,还是一样,第一件事,问我分数,不然就问我朋友,不然就去看我分数,看了也算了,你们知道吗,我不是天才,也不是神,我其实笨得很,我的一切都是我很努力很努力换回来的,所以,我也会有失败的时候,我不会永远都是最高分的那个,我也没有想要这样,当我拿到我不满意的分数时,我自己也很沮丧,请你不要告诉我"怎么可能?"这是在我伤口上撒盐.不要给我惊讶的眼光,我接受不到,你们只会让我觉得更压力,就好像我不应该不能得到这样的分数.我知道有些不是恶意的,我也知道真正在比较的人是谁.我衷心希望你们不要再比较我的分数,面对你们,我很辛苦.

今天我真的很感谢我班的大部分朋友.(排除掉那些比成绩的人==).你们让我觉得很窝心,我没有想过原来你们都有在注意我,关心我.今天你们的陪伴,安慰,鼓励,关心,我都收到了.其实我不换班的原因就是因为还有你们这些朋友,虽然面对他们我很大压力,可是你们却给了我很多欢乐.听我诉苦,给我欺负,和我一起38,哈哈.

那些说我今天英语节笑得很勉强很安静的人,以后我就吵一点笑得灿烂点,哈哈,谢谢你们<3

thx for the people who cheer me at the chatbox,my fb inbox,msg,and college=)

Wing u really warm my heart thank for your care.thank for seeing my existence=] you don't know how much I love you as my friend=D

2011-12-05T00:13:00.003+08:00

郁可唯-傷不起

2011-12-03T18:00:00.001+08:00

现在的我
真的很难过很难过
不知道为什么
只有这里
可以让我真正地依靠
这只是个过渡期对吧
真的很想快点真正地开心起来

不被重视的感觉多么不好受
尤其是当你明明很在乎对方

还是一个人比较好

我真的不知道我应该怎么做，我只想过得开心点

2011-11-30T01:12:00.000+08:00

baba i love you

2011-11-26T15:06:00.000+08:00

Tuesday was my dad's birthday and my mom planned to give him a surprise steamboat birthday party in my new house! how lovely is my mom<3 she invited some of my relatives and asked me to call darlings along since they are my dad's kai lui=D so bad that waigie cannot make it due to some reason but i did give her a call that day because my dad miss her!hehe.my dad is so nice=) my bro's gf,miao also could not make it since she went for her graduation trip with her classmates.she bought me a pant after she came back,thx dear miao^^ i went home from college at 5.chatted and took photo with fang while waiting for the others coming.i was so hungry TT around 8,we start the party and my dad was happy with it.he looked so happy.i was glad to see him smile and laugh charmingly<3

hahaha.the drawing given by someone.do you think that the left girl and the right girl is the same person?no right!TT so ugly leh=( but i really appreciate it and i will keep it,thanks^^

thx for helping my mom a lot to prepare the party and ur attending!^^

i feel weird actually but fang keep on saying nice and support me to keep this hair style O.O

we prepared a lot of food=D

this noob noob is my gorgor,hehe =p

two brothers

my cutie little cousin,haha

we are a family^^

me,muimui and mama

my darling fangie@kai mui <3

the birthday cake=D

happy birthday baba and i love you =$ i wish that you can allow me to go out more and dont be so strict to me,hahaha.most important is you must stay healthy=)

bad bad mood

2011-11-24T19:30:00.002+08:00

the more you expected,the more hurt you will get.i do not expect much but my effort force me to expect high.how i wish that i can be relax a bit,set the target low a bit,i know that i should be satisfied but when i sat in the car,waiting for my brother outside citc,i started to take tissue and wipe out something.i feel sad.my mind told me that i am satisfied with it but it cannot control my heart in the end.especially when the moment i am alone,i felt like i can reveal myself finally,i blame myself,blame myself for not putting enough effort?or blame myself for putting too much effort?sometimes i do hate myself that i cnt accept failure,i cnt accept it because of i feel that i really sacrifice so much until i should get what i am deserved for.i also know that i must face the failure since no matter how hard i work,i definitely will fall down someday.i have to change my mind,i try to.feel so bad today.

if i dont climb so high in the beginning,i wont be suffering like now.i just cant stop once i start my journey.the link that i share on my fb wall about aries is so correct.it describe me well. "要么不做要做就做到最好其实羊羊也是完美主义者极端主义者要么破碎要么完美不要中间。" i wont give up unless i reach the peak,i wont give up in the half way,i wont let my effort get wasted.the every single word there also describe me correctly,i feel like seeing someone who so understand me but it is just a link.lol,

2011-11-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

我不喜歡現在的我

Reason

2011-11-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

哈林庾澄庆 - 春泥

2011-11-10T22:20:00.001+08:00

Stressful

2011-11-07T13:50:00.002+08:00

Long time never update.this semester is much more busy than last semester.I face a lot of pressure and I am so stress.I don't know how to control my emotion and handle the stress.my friends,I may less find you or contact you but please forgive me because I have my own things to do,I really feel so depress.i hope that you can understand my situation and support me quietly instead of thinking too much or blaming me.sometimes I feel that I am so useless.putting 100% effort doesn't mean that you will get back 100%.not everyone can know that how much pressure i am enduring.I feel like I can't breathe sometimes,maybe it is cause of I am too stubborn of something.I don't feel good these weeks=( but who knows?who care?

For those who so like to gossip others,I really quite hate you all! First,I don't know you,second,If I know you we may not so close,so please don't simply criticizing me! I did not offense you so do respect me! It is so hurt to hear someone say your bad words but it is not true!the point is they still want to talk to my close friends,are you trying to destroy my image or make them to stay away from me?I be myself and I don't think that what you say is true.if this is true,I will accept and be better.but if you just want to gossip cause of you are too free or what,I just can say that,you may get the retribution someday! Don't ever try to slander me.for those my dearest friends who choose to trust them,I will be sad of course,but I just can let u go since u don't know me well.
Thanks those who 100% believe me n stand by me no matter what happen.

I seriously dislike people put me aeroplane== I remember that you say you when you will find me but u totally din inform me although you din come in the end.

One more thing I want to say,I have moved into my new house=)

photos post

2011-10-07T15:01:00.060+08:00

the photos took in february 2011.

credits to xiao bai.=D
i love this series of photos because my important friends are there and i would like to celebrate every birthday with them every year<3 i love the smile love the natural action and everything.they are my buddies forever=)

My eyes have been sick

2011-09-20T16:55:00.003+08:00

Half year ago,I checked my eyes and got to know that the power of short sightedness increased 300 degree,it shocked me and depressed me.after that,I promise myself to take good care of my eyes,don't let the condition getting serious.today,the second day of my second semester,sat the same place as last semester,something has changed.I could not see the words in front clearly,I can't note down anything.my eyes,is getting serious again.what can I do?I have tried my best to protect my eyes.just half year,just change the spectacles for half year,I CANNOT SEE THINGS CLEARLY AGAIN!!!!!!!!! I am not intend to check my eyes again,I avoid the fact.I don't have the courage to know that how many degree has increased this time.maybe after several years,I won't be able to see things anymore?I will be blind?lol.just don't think about it.I pretend that I don't know this.I will change to sit in the more front row until I can see the words clearly.everything will be fine.

2011-09-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

是不是真的走不下去了，原來比想像中的還要難走很多。

one malaysia

2011-09-16T23:54:00.003+08:00

i am so sorry that i am really so so so lazy to update my blog T.T especially upload photos,cost me a lot of time,so i just write out,no photos=D
yesterday darlings came my house,as usual,chit chat.dont know why everytimes we sure can laugh nonstop and talk nonstop== and my house has become the place that we gather,hehe.after that,my dad brought them to my new house.we have planned something,hehe,looking forward for it!^^they are willing to help me tidy my new room,how much i appreciate that!since everyone just will come to play but they wanna to help me!i think we will be very happy to tidy the room together and overnight there<3 just we three people in the new house,cant wait for the day!after that,we went to eat dim sum.i help them to take photo with my parents^^they already so close with my parents and my parents love them.i love this feeling that my friends can be very good with my family,so that my dad sure allow me to go out with them,haha.the photo of them with my parents will be uploaded to my fb soon.then,we turned back to home.waiting for the coming of 12o'clock.we watched the fireworks on the balcony.unlucky that the tree in front of my house has grown and become bigger.it cover 3/4 of the KL Tower.we could not see the fireworks clearly.but nvm,we still enjoyed ourselves.we shout MERDEKA loudly,so funny and embarrasing.haha.my family laughed us inside the house,lol.we chit chat until 1a.m then they went home.i saw them run to the car,haha.no worries,i was looking at you until you drove away=)another simple but happy day again^^
i am so blissful because i have a complete family and a few true friends.i dont need many friends but having you all i feel satisfied=)let the past be the past.i appreciate what i am having now.i just hope that my friends can believe me no matter what happen.dont be influenced by others.believe who i am and my personality.never abandon me suddenly or without any reason.this is just what i want.

enjoy my life=D

heart -to- heart talk

2011-09-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

i love heart-to-heart talks <3 today i am having this with her=) you gonna be fine and tougher.

Love is the matter between two persons

2011-09-06T17:59:00.002+08:00

Today my mood quite good,hehe.today my topic is about love.
Pakto is the matter between two person.if we have any problem or what,it is better to tell or ask your partner directly.don't ask those friend's around your partner,you are in a relationship with her/him,not his friends right?don't think that what you did is good for him/her,your partner will prefer you to ask him/her instead of his friends.and maybe,those friends around him/her are not good,they may destroy the good relationship between you and him/her.you can talk to his friend's of course,but don't lie him/her.when he know the truth,he just will be sad,what is the point that you want to lie him/her?friend's are friend's,partner is partner,they are separated.if your partner don't mind,you can join his friend's to chat and play together.but don't often find his friends chat personally or even lie him! If you love your partner,please stand by his side,don't always think that what you did is right.respect him and don't lie him.white lie is always a bad excuse.the conclusion is,it is the best that dont involve the third people in the case between a couple.and those lovely friend's,don't help your friend's partner to lie him/her,your behavior will disappoint your friend and your friend may not trust you anymore.

Update about life

2011-08-31T18:25:00.003+08:00

feel free to update now=DD well,what i was busy for before?dancing competition!i havent got the video from my friends so i cannot share with you all.my team called'WOW',we get the third prize in the competition.we have tried our best although we cannot get champion as what the teacher expected.we did a small mistake.we were so happy when we know that we get the third prize.but something happened and our mood get affected.my teammates started to cry with sadness and furious.the moment we all startled and full of sadness.nvm,my friends,we have done well,we are the best!=) at the beginning of joining this,I felt very upset and lonely.I didn't have any friend there and I just kept silent all the time.practice alone,walk alone.I felt regret that I join this but at last,I felt so heavy-hearted to leave them.we all are so gam xing before the day of competition.we sat together and chit chat.the feel was so warm.I love dancing and I love them! How I wish that we still have the chance to gather and dance together.
Next,I was busy for my trial exam.since that was my first semester,so I was relax for it.I know that the next semester sure will be more hard.promise myself to not be lazy and too relax again.a promise to myself,and also my ex tuition teachers.I don't want to disappoint them.
Now I am having my sem break,three weeks.so syiok=D I am so happy with it.hanging out with friends,watching drama,online until midnight,sleeping until 1something,yamcha with family,I love my holiday^^ next week gonna busy tidying for my new house,I have to clean my new house,new room,excited!
Lately saw a friend's blog,there is so much feeling come to me.reading her blog like reading myself.I kept thinking of myself when I read her blog,I feel like talk to this girl and cheer this girl.weird feeling.she is so emo,I wish to see her bright side.she is a pretty girl,I wish to see her smile.I wish to see her gain her confidence.
I have been so down for a period.now is the time to awake.the encouragement and comfort that I received from everyone are so useful.I need the caring so much and I get it,even if you are just a stranger,I do appreciate too!
Feel like shopping and buy many many stuff=[ have to save more money.
My dear munyee go back johor tomorrow,I have no chance to go out with her.hope that I can hang out with her next time=[ take care please.
And also my sis joslyn,less can talk to her face to face.her mother is so strict.after I have car,I will drive to find her more.
Bye.

2011-08-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

Emo again,ishhh,sigh............after today something changes,my heart changes,my heart dies.Sometimes feel like stay away from something,something that I love but will hurt me.something that I appreciate but I didn't get the same thing back.what am I and I am what.emo again!damn hate myself!haizzzzzzzzz.after today,I will be fine.after tomorrow,I will be better.be tough,nothing can defeat you=]

the day with my darlings

2011-08-28T22:26:00.010+08:00

i should post this one month ago but i was quite busy before,so now only update =p
it was a sunday.i tried my first time to drive alone to waigie's house to fetch her and fangie.we went to buy ingredients for baking the muffin=D then we baked the muffin in waigie's house,her mom taught me how to bake it,thanks so much!^^

i love them soooo much <3

i know my look quite 'ah sam'=( i was listening to her mom attentively,she guided me to bake the muffin.

her dog kept walking around me.i was so scared at the beginning but i started to 'accept' it after a while xD

omg!!put too much chocolate already,all expanded and the look became so ugly=(

the second time!successful=DD

my darling fed me =$

darling <3

darlingssssss <3 <3 bff

she was so hardworking la=)

the first time i touched the dog.xD but i havent dare to hug it,hehe.every moment i spent with them was so fun and happy.i love you darlings!meet you soon=D

=[

2011-08-24T23:02:00.004+08:00

If you are really happy,you won't lose the feel when you stay in a silent place.night is the best timing for you to realize it.sometimes we may not understand ourselves,we thought we are stay in a happy mood but actually we are not.that's why we can laugh and cry at the same time.that's why we can play crazily at this moment but breaking down at the next moment.finding a quiet place,calming your mind,you will know the answer.the thing that affects you will appear in your mind automatically.we thought we can let it go but we can't.the wound is still there and hide deeply in our hearts until we can't realize it.we are strong enough because we know to heal ourselves.we know that we can't rely everything on others.we are strong enough to accept the fact that the wound will not be recovered.not everything can be solved,not everytimes we can face thing optimistically.life is harsh.everyone has his own's problem,everyone will feel emo sometimes,everyone will feel that the things don't go smoothly sometimes.when we can't solve it,we just can write it down to make ourselves feel better.

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2011-07-25T23:50:00.002+08:00

这几天
过得很不好
心情被影响得很严重
去年那个时候的心情回来了
后悔了那个决定
造成今天自己的伤痕累累
一直以为是自己的错
听到了一些东西
想通了
为什么我这么笨
这么懦弱
被你说成那样毫不反击
没想过
你会是这样
伤透了
之前的原谅换来的是说出那样的话
我却还傻傻的
你有没有想过
当初的你如果是我
一定生气死了
还会给解释的机会？
我选择相信
换来一堆难听的话
那时我问自己
如果第2天就会死掉了
我会后悔没原谅你吗
结果我选择了你
现在
伤心够了
不想被欺负
听到那些难听的话
做些白痴的事了
我的生活不想再被影响了
浪费了太多时间在这件事
以后都不想提起了
让这些所有都消失。

smooth

2011-07-14T20:40:00.005+08:00

my life is going smoothly.i think?== life sure has up and down.my life is full of fun compared to secondary school.indeed.college life is much enjoyable.enjoyable doesn't mean that i am happy.however,i am happy whenever i be with my classmates and my friends.so the conclusion is,I AM FINE.this is the answer to those who ask me "how are you?"=)

group discussion with my classmates during english class.they are my good friends=)

alex.genius in my class.he is so sot.he said he was very tired then he climb up the stairs== unfortunately i cant capture it in time>< he has stood up when i captured him.lol.

went to grandmom dessert cafe with my friends.every week i will plan to go somewhere with xiaoying=D sometimes connie,xixin and other friends will go along with us too=D the dessert is totally same with snowflake.for me,the taste same too.and the price is cheaper than snowflake.i dont need to go so far to eat snowflake anymore=D the shop is situated at genting klang.

mei xin.sweet girl=D

these chocolate sold in my college.they look so cute>< my college always organise so many event but the things are expensive T.T

my closest friend <3 yee shan

jia hui and nick jun jun.my good friends=D

i always picnic in the lecture hall.the mouth never stop 1.eating eating and eating.i like to eat the biscuit so much!! thx xixin and xiao ying always bring for me to eat^^

the lecturer switch off the main light and switch on the yellow light(look like so romantic)to show us those touching video.everytimes alex sure will cry out,he is so gam xing.

they are xiao ying's classmates.sometimes i will join them during the lecture class.

during HE lecture class.nobody is willing to attend.there are around 300 people in group c of accounting but those who attend it just 30++ people?!! the situation become better when the lecturer starts to take attendance O.O

i love HEW XIAO YING and YAP KAR YEN for helping me a lot in my college and so sayang me <3 <3

next post i will talk about the day with my darlings<3

what i have gained in college is,MY OCNFIDENCE LOST.

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friendship is hard to be maintained since it requires both to keep in touch.
世态炎凉
有多少个人会记得你
会保持联络
会找你
会想起你
就算你主动保持联络
对方也未必会理你
我是不是应该庆幸
至少我还有她，她和她
i never thought that the caring i get the most after graduated is from the friends who studied the different secondary school from me.appreciate=)

sushi sushi

2011-06-22T18:13:00.020+08:00

finally,i am free to upload thse photos from my camera.i am lazy to describe more about it,just let the photos tell you about the story.the day i went to xiaoying's house with my buddies to do sushi.we went to jusco and dpc to buy the ingredients,thanks to the driver-kok eng=D and lend me his car to drive xD

THE END.

i love my buddies so much.i appreciate every gathering with them and i do miss them a lot=) thanks for attending two of the gatherings lately.
my love-munyee,kher chin,xiao ying,kar yen,kok eng,yong guang,zheng hui,teik nan,ming hui.u all are my love <3 i am happy to do sushi and went for ice-skating with u all.

2011-06-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

我查找通訊錄，一個一個去找，想找下哪些中學同學和我同學院的，一個一個去問，看下有沒有人休息時間和我一樣，讓我可以有訴說的對象。不是我不要和我班的人說，只是真的還沒有那種想說的感覺，心里始終比較想對以前的朋友說。我的心很不舒服，很想找人說。儘管我再怎麼努力很你們玩，和你們笑，我還是揮散不了心裡的不舒服。當我已經找到快絕望了，我告訴自己，如果真的找不到人，我就去找哥哥算了，我實在太需要一個人聽我說話，一個我熟悉的人。結果，我找到了你們。謝謝。雖然不能幫我甚麼，我只是想說出來，舒服點。兩個小時里找到三個人聽我說，傷心了三次。但是舒服了。有時很想放棄讀這科，就是因為沒有一個熟悉的人在身邊，很多話無法說，很多時候無法得到想要的安全感。不知道幾時才能適應這樣的生活。有時只是很需要你們的關心。很需要鼓勵。

the persons

2011-06-03T21:44:00.002+08:00

我不是时常都这么有mood上来写东西，很难得今天要写下那天的sushi day,结果upload不到照片，bek cek!!算，下次得空再upload给你们看下。那天超好玩的=D 我发现到有时写blog是一件很累的事，要花很多的时间== 既然不能放照片,就讲下我的近况吧.
i was so upset last week due to some problems,luckily i still have my darlings,fangie phoned me and listened to me,of course my waigie was so concerning me too,i quite love them.we do not know each other for a long period but i appreciate them and they are quite important to me now.thanks for caring <3 <3 and now,the only person that i can always talk to is my baby,everytimes meet with her,i have so much things to share with her and the topic will never end,.the most important is,she will be there for me whenever i need her=) anyway,the problem has been solved and i appreciate what i am having now.
today i had a crazy day with my classmates.i started to close with half of my classmates and gradually showed them my characteristic of 38.i laughed for the whole day in my class and they just looked at me and wondered that what i was laughing for.and then they followed me laughing too== let me introduce some of my classmates to you,no photos =D
in the class,yee shan is the closest friend of mine,she was the first person who talked to me during my first day in the class.she sits beside me and sometimes we recess together.we always create a lot of "kou tou chan" to make our conversations become so fun!=D she said my first impression to her was lut lut like that and looked like good at studying==
next,jia hui was the first guy who talked to me.and he told me that he know me since form 4,i was surprised at this since i never saw him before== sorry gam yu lou xD i called him gam yu lou because he likes flirting.he is the most noisy person in my class( i am the second =x ).he is a good guy,he will comfort me when i was sad,he will say cold joke to make me laugh.we always argue in the class and zat each other.my classmates also cant stand for us== we sure will argue everytimes we chat because i like to zat him.our conversations are always full of fun unless i was in a bad mood,then i wont talk much or even argue with him.and thx for your compliment,hahahaha =DD he said that his first impression to me is 诱惑,haha.after he explained to me,i laughed nonstop xD
next,there is a guy called zuo lun in my class.sometimes he will join us and chat together.he just need to sit there and listen to the conversations between gam yu lou and i,then laugh nonstop,lol.he is the one who always eat so many things during recess,same with me.we always feel so hungry after finish a plate of food,then we will buy something to eat again.a few days ago,he ordered a plate of noodles and a bowl of noodles at the same time @.@ his first impression to me......havent asked xD
there are so much friends i lazy to describe already== my class rep is jamie,the genius is alex,leng lui kylie,piece who always dresses up like tomboy,yik mun(we called her IP man) and so on.
during my lecture class,i stick with my buddy-xiao ying.sometimes xixin,sze wei and some new friends will be with us too.
and then of course there are two guys i want to introduce too.first is voon bing(i write you leh xD ) the one who is so kind to his friends and fetch me to college when i dont have transport,gam gek bat zun T.T his driving skill damn pro== and he will work hard on his study,just keep it up,you sure can achieve your goals=)
the second person is rong wei,i like to zat him too=D as i know,he is the most guai one among his friends.just he so like to sleep== one day,i asked him "why you dont want to play basketball with them?" he answered me "because the weather make me feel like sleeping", me"playing basketball also can fall asleep?", him"yala" me"........" i was speechless.whatever i asked him,he also can related to sleeping one.but overall he is a good guy too la. i am glad to know them.although we are not same class now,i wont forget them la =D
that is enough for today,i have to offline now.i will update whenever i free.good night^^

2011-05-25T23:25:00.001+08:00

There are so much things I want to say but nobody can let me talk to

22。5。2011

2011-05-22T20:12:00.005+08:00

我的honeymoon时期过了，现在忙到半死@.@ 知道你们很想念我，就给你们看下我的新鲜照片拉xDDD

妈妈带我去云顶做facial,rm180一次 O.O 很贵，但是超级舒服=D

那天在学校，脚痛到半死，偏偏那天的课室一个在东一个在西，走死我了。幸好早上有darling waigie扶我，接下来都是小丘在陪我，陪我一步一步慢慢地走（乌龟都走赢我，真的==你无法想象我走到几慢），人家走10分钟，我走了半小时。然后找课室时，走了1个小时，幸好有她帮我拿那些书，扶着我，不然我走到晚上都可以==然后为了避免那些人奇怪的眼光，我还要一直逼自己走到很自然，不要一跛一跛的。好不容易走到图书馆，我们进去吹冷气休息下，真的很热！！去图书馆前，她去office做东西一下，我就先走去图书馆，结果她做完东西到了我都还没到，因为我不会路，一条直路就可以到图书馆，我不知道，结果兜了一大圈才到==她拍下了我的pattern xD

在大学真的没有一天不流汗的，每天都要晒太阳，不黑都难。不是淋雨就是晒太阳。每天很累不是因为读书，而是因为一直走路。
忘了有什么要写@.@反正我就很感激在大学陪我帮我的人。过了几个星期，还是很emo，但是一直告诉自己可以适应的，就好多了。至少我不再害怕一个人在大学走来走去，一个人坐在食堂，一个人跑去图书馆坐在角落，一个人走去cc上网.如果幸运的话就可以遇到朋友谈天下，不幸运的话，就自己找东西做咯。
大概就这样啦。

current life

2011-05-14T14:02:00.009+08:00

i have cut my hair,but not big difference la.

i just want to tell you all,I AM FINE=) these few days i was so down,down,down.but i believe that all these will pass and the bright future is waiting for me.i just cant adapt to my life now,TEMPORARY.sometimes i just need a people stay beside me,listen to me,support me and tell me that i will be ok.just like that.but the fact is,i shouldn't rely on others.i cant rely on you.that day i called her and cried out,i told her what i am thinking,i know she was tired,but i just need a person listen to me,a person who i wish to talk to.sorry for bothering her.after saying out,i felt better.and i choose to let it pass.what i need to do is,i want learning to be more independent,i dont want be an innocent kid anymore.i want to learn so much things,so that i can take care myself.emo emo,please go away,i want to stay happy=) actually i got to know some new friends in my college,but i didn't have a closer talk with them.i am not a girl of passion and wont talk too much to strangers.of course if you are my closely friends,i will show you how 38 i am and can be very active when be with you.in college,i havent got to know new friends just because of this-慢热.i felt lucky that i met two new friends who lived in kepong area.they are so nice.they are willing to fetch me to college,accompany me,reserve a seat for me during lecture class.unfortunately,the class list had come out and i am divided into a class different from them.i dont know anyone of my classmates.the worse is,i have been divided into another group.means i cant have my lecture class with them.nobody will reserve a seat for me anymore=( since there are too much students taking accounting course,the lecture hall was always fulled.those who failed to find a seat have to stand there until the class finished.i was the victim before i know them.next week my timetable has changed and i need to adjust myself again.i need to find my class and lecture hall by using the map,get to know my new classmates,new course rep and new groupmates.i believe that everything will be fine,ya,it will=)

bestie<3

a few days ago my bi came my college to find me.had a nice chat with her.i know you are the one who will support me always and stay beside me.although some of our characteristics are so different,but we know to tolerate and respect each other well.everyone has his own personality.in this world,we have to learn how to respect someone if he is worth to be.and dont ever try to lie the one who you care,you will regret once he know that you have lied him so much.i am talking about FRIENDSHIP here.i love my bi because she wont lie me,she will tell me everything,she will share with me,she so sayang me,she will take care me,she will protect me and she love me <3 sorry that i have made you so sad before but i want to tell you,you are important to me,dont think so much=)

this is my room :D

很多朋友问我几时才搬，我也答不到你们，屋子买了1年多，拖了半年，再加上很多问题，搞到最近才开始装修。看照片你就知道，整间屋子差不多拆完弄过==还有一段日子才装修好吧。不过预算是今年搬的。现在已经拆得7788了，过后就等他们弄我们要的。我也蛮期待搬进新家的=D

just because of i care you
i love you
so i am easy to get angry

2011-05-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

It is so hard to maintain a relationship,and sometimes really tired of it.

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2011-05-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

纯粹觉得心情不太好，就上来写写，有时心情不好时，还蛮不知道应该做些什么，就只是想安静，很安静，然后不说话，可是心里却又难受得半死，不知道为什么，有时就是很懒得说，不想说。我知道我是一个很笨的人，有太多的事等着我去学，有时我又好像很麻烦的，总是需要被照顾，但是我告诉自己，无论多么害怕，我都不想再依赖。不知道怎么了，反正心情就是不好。人的心情最糟糕时就是不知道为什么自己的心情很糟==唉。我发现到作弄欣卉是我的乐趣==又或是在她面前耍白痴不顾形象，我也可以短暂开心一下。朋友有时真的得看缘分，我的确不是能够在每个人的面前都那么放得开。我爱玩，爱认真地谈心。我也不知道自己在写什么== i am not really enjoy my college life.

2011-05-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

I miss you:)

orientation day

2011-05-03T21:10:00.002+08:00

today was the first day of my college life,orientation day.wth.queue up until the door(almost),the weather was hot like hell,i was sweating like hell,waiting like hell,and no umbrella..finally my turn to take the tarc shirt,there just remain L size shirts,wth again== then we went to male toilet to change the shirts,since the event had been started and the female toilet was fulled.the shirt is loose,i really quite beh song,i have paid the money for the shirt but i had no the choice to choose a shirt that suit my body size.after changing the shirt in a rush condition,we went into the college hall,i was still sweating nonstop,looked like bathing.the hall was fulled of the students studied SBS-School of Business Studies.and i dont know whether the air-condition had been opened or not,i could not sense any cool feelings there.next,they talked nonstop on the stage and i NEVER listen to them.i read the map of college,read the buildings one by one,my block was just behind the library.then read another map,so many clinics in the tarc area,dont need to worry that cant find a doctor when we suddenlt faint or feel sick in college.lol.next,read the calendar,2011,2012,2013,i was wondering why they print the 3years of calendar for us,nevermind,since i was too free,i checked my brithday for 2012 and 2013,next year will be fallen on friday while next next year will be fallen on saturday,i was too lame right== after a few hours,finally they had finished their talks,omg,i was TOUCH and gave them a few big claps.then,we went to the group of courses that we have chosen.there is the least students in retail management,7 students only,and today just 3 students attended== for sure,the most students took accounting course,986 students there@.@ i was thinking,isn't the whole block was fully filled by accounting students?== after telling us to come at 8.30a.m on the next day,they allow us to back home already.it was raining heavily and i had to walk in the rain since the car park is so far=(
the conclusion is,i did not get any information today.about the whole week schedule,they didn't tell any details about it,or maybe i din't listen to them when they were talking about that.so i am still blur.today was just HOT like hell,HUNGRY like hell,TIRED like hell,BORED like hell.the only lucky thing is i have friends study the same course with me,at least i wont be alone.
this is the story of today.

the end of my working life

2011-05-03T20:17:00.005+08:00

30.4.2011,saturday,was my last day of working,i was so happy because i really tired of working life and i HATE working!although this job is far better than other jobs i did before,and this job is quite relax,but i still hate working.here is my working place

a place that my colleagues stir and mix the paints which require by customers.

my table.

the table beside me.normally they will sit there for a rest or play cards there.

a part of the stock.

2k thinner,nissan 928 and etc.you dont know what are these?nevermind,i wont blame you,because i just know all these after i have been working there for 1month,their names are hard to be memorized,and i was strange to those stuff.

fax machine,telephone and the machine that stirs those tins of paints.

虾饺仔.a baby kid took care by my aunt,she brought him to my shop everyday,and we like to play with him,so bad that now his parents take him back already.dont have the chance to play with him anymore,or even make him cry xD i always scold him because he was so naughty and disturbed me while i was working hard.

samsung galaxy.my colleague's handphone,actually he did not use it and just brought it to shop and let us play=D so kind.and also the manager had bought an iphone,he would click in the facebook automatically and passed to me when i was bored or nothing to do,he let me play his phone instead of asking me to do more work,how kind the manager is=) everyday they would ask me,what you want to eat or drink,then they would pack for me,or sometimes i want to eat fruits,then my colleagues would ride their motors and bought the fruits for me,they are really too kind=) i enjoy working there because nowadays is hard to find a working place that the colleagues will treat you good and wont gossip any bad words about you.

yes!!my face looks so thin in this photo=DD

and my skin looks fair=DD i have cut my hair,so my fringe not that long anymore.and also my hair not that thick.

hello everybody =D

2011-04-29T23:15:00.006+08:00

someone made my chatbox lost== nevermind,since i am so kind,i FORGIVE you=) temporarily,i wont make a new chatbox,so if you have anything want to say to me,you may leave your comment in my post.but i think the loss of chatbox isn't a bad matter too,because not much people want to chat with me T.T but i know actually you all are still concern me,the "today's visitors" show me that=) maybe you are dont like to type?or maybe you are prefer to concern me silently?xD its ok,as long as you all still care me my friends=)
actually i am not a blogger,i am just a blog writer== my blog is my house,i note down my things,my feelings and whatever i want to share with you here.my blog is normal,not as funny as other's blog,not as attractive as other's blog,if you take a look for my blog,is because of you care me,you love me,you want to know more about me,you want to know how i am recently,you want to understand my feelings,you want to know what i amthinking.sometimes i will share my feelings here,but sometimes i wont,because i cant get used to reveal too much of my privacy here,but i am willing to share some happy matters happened on me here,if i am not lazy xD
last post i have promised to continue my thanks list,although i am so lazy,but still need to come here and list out their names=D ok,let's start!
THANKS GOR and MIAO brought me to times square to meet my friend,then they bought a bag to me.after that we went to the curve to have our dinner,then went to library to drink beers,"library"here doesn't mean that is the place of reading or borrow books,is a place like pub.hehe.i really quite enjoy the time be with them,i was quite happy that day.thanks gor and dai sou^^
then,THANKS WAI LUEN took the present to my house,and the small birthday card.we had a nice talk and really so nice to see him again.thanks darling^^
THANKS SIN HUI she bought me two slices of secret recipe cakes and a birthday card which made by herself,there are so much touching words inside=D thanks baby^^
finally i met with kah kah!i miss her a lot!i celebrated her birthday with karyen them.and she gave me the belated present too.i love it=) thanks kah kah mei mei ^^
ermmm,i think i have finished my thanks list,dont have any person left there right?@.@ i dont know whether i have missed to thank anyone,because my memory not so good T.T those who is going to pass me the present after this,so sorry that i cant thank you here already,but i will appreciate too <3

i am so glad that although we have graduated,but when you know i emo or unhappy,you still will sms or inbox me or call me,just want to know that whether i am fine,anything you can help me and try your best to cheer me,i am a person will feel touch easily,so i am touched T.T thanks my friends,thanks to cheer me and encourage me and care me always.
low ming hui
tan kok eng
i know both of you treat me so good,i really love you these friends.i am so lucky to know you=)

those who i care,even if after so many years,i will never forget you,NEVER.because i love you.everyone is busy proceeding their second stage of life,me too.i bless you and bless myself.we will never lost contact and you are stay in my heart,if you are important to me.you will know that you are one of the persons i care.

i sincerely hope that your dad will recover,jia you=]

p/s someone help me do the chatbox after all, thankyou=]

2011-04-19T00:36:00.001+08:00

還是一樣
那麼地沒安全感

thanks list 1

2011-04-14T13:34:00.009+08:00

13th of april is a big day for me,maybe is just a normal day for others and they will not care about it,but i do really care it,no reason,just because of i born in this day== today i am going to thanks those friends one by one,i will update my birthday celebration on the next post IF I AM FREE,depends on my laziness xD i considered whether want to share my blog link in facebook so that you all can see this post and know that you are one of the person who i appreciate,eventually i did not share it because i really dont like to show my blog link in public and let so much strangers to read it..so if you find out my blog link by yourself,then i want to tell you,you are so lucky xDD

9th of april,my cousin brought me to one utama sing k,after that went to umaiya to have our dinner..carol bought me a pair of ALDO shoes=D i love it so much and it is so expensive!!it cost around rm300 @.@ THANKS CAROL <3 and thanks for the expensive dinner from CAROL,KEAT,NIKKI-KI ER,DENISE,SIEW WEI,SIEW YIN,AH KAI,SALLY,ANDY,NIKKI NAH,KELVIN,GUO WEI and MAGGIE <3

10th of april,last minute plan for it,i was sleeping at 11a.m,then picked up some calls from my friends,after discussing in a half-conscious condition,i woke up and rushed to one utama,with my buddies..thanks the PDI jacket from LAY SAN,SHI YING and XIAO YING.ROXY purse from KOK ENG and CHAN SHERNG.baskin robbin ice-cream cake from 6 of you,MUN YEE,SHI YING,XIAO YING,LAY SAN,KOK ENG and YEONG GUANG <3 THANKS.

12th of april,sai yin came my house with a slice of secret recipe chocholate cake..he purposely took the cake to my house and then back home,i was surprised that he will do this for me,THANKS SAI YIN <3 9something,kher chin and xiao bai came my house to find me,kher chin chatted with my dad a while and then brought me out,the condition is i must back home before 11.30p.m.we went to starbuck had a drink and a walk.i had my first try in mocha and it is nice=) THANKS XIAO BAI for the cake and flower <3 and thanks both of you-KHER CHIN and XIAO BAI celebrate for me on my birthday eve.<3

12th of april,when i was working,jun kang suddenly took out a slice of cake and sang birthday song to me.and gave me present.THANKS JUN KANG 12.00 a.m,means 13th of april too.i received many wishes from my friends,now i only realise that their wishes are so precious for me and made me excited for the whole night,even if just a message or a call,i feel happy of it! THANKS all of you who wish me in facebook,since there are too much people,so i cannot list out all the name here=( but i did read the wishes from you all one by one,thanks <3 next,i want to thanks those who are willing to waste a little bit of their phone money for sending me a wishing message,before i list out their name,i want to announce the FIRST PERSON who wished me through sms at 12.00 a.m is YAN ZHENG,and the LAST PERSON who wished me at 12.00a.m is SWING.ok,here are the wishes i got from my dearly friends(in ascending order)

1.SAI YIN (curi ayam,before 12a.m already sms me and told me he was going to sleep)
2.YAN ZHENG
3.CAROL
4.JEN BHIN
5.SEE JIE
6.SHI YING
7.KA HOU
8.KOK ENG
9.PENG YIH
10.YANCY
11.SIN HUI
12.JIA HAO
13.LOW MING HUI
14.SI YING
15.THIAM SOON
16.JIA JUN
17.SOO WAI
18.MIN THEAN
19.ZHI CHI
20.CHRISTINE TAN
21.MUN YEE
22.HAN LEEK
23.KAR YEN
24.CHUN ZERN
25.TEH MING HUI
26.KAR DIN
27.XIAO YING
28.FANG PERNG
29.TEIK NAN
30.SIAN NEE
31.PEI SHI
32.JIA YIN
33.XUE LI
34.SHUKHI
35.UNKNOWN (i dont know who he/she is,and he/she din reply me)
36.YEN FANG
37.CLEMENT
38.HUI XUAN
39.JENBHIN (again xD this is a special message,a birthday song sing by himself=) )
40.CHOO WEI
41.TAU HAN (my addmaths tuition teacher)
42.GUO WEI
43.CHRISTINE NAH
44.WEI LON
45.YUN YI
46.SIEW WEI
47.SHI WEI
48.LAY SAN
49.KA KEAT
50.SOH YIENG
51.DONG YI
52.WEI LON (again xD he wished my birthday has passed== but there have touching words too=D)

THANKS TO ALL ABOVE <3

next,those who wished me through phone call=DD the FIRST PERSON is TALLMAN!!he want me to mention this here,lol xD here is the list(ascending order)

1.TALLMAN
2.JIA HAO
3.XIAO BAI
4.JOEE
5.JIAN FOONG
6.EE XIN
7.KAH KAH
8.HOONG JOE
9.JIA YAO

THANKS ALL OF YOU <3

13th of april,my manager treated me eat pizza hut,THANKS AH BU <3 and THANKS MY COLLEAGUE,GONG GONG AND AH KIT <3 mun yee took present to my shop and gave me,a photo album,very memorable and she is so creative,i know you made this by using your whole heart.i smiled and touched when i was reading that.THANKS MY DEAR <3 hui xuan top up rm30 for me.THANKS AH JIE aka MY WOMEN <3 had a dinner with my parents,THANKS DAD,MUM,GOR,DI <3 the present from my mom:there is a picture of my mom and mine on a pillow.THANKS MUMMY <3 a pair of garfield house-wear shoes and MERCI chocolate from my little brother.THANKS DIDI <3 jia hao purposely took present to my house and gave me,a book,a necklace,earring and a card.THANKS UBI <3 9p.m.ah b came to fetch me to one utama,with riing,tallman,han leek and david.after that we ate snowflake at kota damansara.THANKS AH B,RIING JIE,TALLMAN,HAN LEEK,DAVID <3 11something,jia yao came to find me too.cake,birthday song and the present.THANKS JIA YAO <3

14th of april,ming hui(alice) came my shop gave me the cakes and bread,and we chatted for a while..actually she planned to give me a surprise on 13th,but i was not at home when she came my house,so her plan was failed.i am so sorry=( but i am still feel touch,THANKS AH BEI <3 6p.m.yen fang and soo wai came my house.a handmade birthday card from yen fang.THANKS FANG GIE <3 a handmade birthday card and 6 muffins which written "chu-han-生-日-快-日" were baked by soo wai herself,THANKS WAI GIE <3 there is nobody bakes a cake or somthing else by own for me before>< and i was surprised for their presents.

my THANKS LIST WILL BE CONTINUED on the next post,LOVE YOU ALL my friends^^ i can feel your heart,thanks for caring,sayang me..你们让我发现，原来我并不是没有存在感的。特地来找我的朋友，我真的很惊喜，特地拿礼物给我，我真的很感动。谢谢你们，我很开心，我知道，我有很真心的朋友。我一直都这么相信着，只要你用心对别人，别人就会用心对你，只有少数的例外拉。但是我很幸运地遇上了你们，我爱你们 <3 <3 <3

少了一些我在乎的人的祝福，多了一些我没想到的祝福，我知道我应该珍惜对我好的人=）
这几天比较忙，没有回到你们信息的对不起！没有答应到和你们出去的朋友也很对不起！我不能出太多，但是你们的心意我收到了=）

知足=）

kindly leave your comment here if you are one of my blog readers=D because someone asked me"why nobody wanna leave comment in your blog although they read your blog?" @.@ i dont know how to answer him== because they same as you?lol.

liar

2011-04-08T18:00:00.004+08:00

我不喜歡被騙，很討厭被騙。很多人會說，我騙你是善意的謊言，是為你好，藉口，對我來說都不成理由，騙了就是騙了，不要告訴我你有多偉大，因為我就是討厭被騙被騙隱瞞的感覺，如果你真的瞭解我，相信我，就不會想要騙我。如果你光明正大就不會騙我。總是很偉大地說，怕你不喜歡，甚麼話？因為沒有被當成朋友才會那樣說，我真的很討厭被騙的感覺，我說過上千次了，坦白！坦白！雖然很小事，雖然不關我的事，但就是不要騙我我。關於到我的，更不要騙我，因為我說過，我總會知道真相，只是我從來不會說，我從來不會想去拆穿，我永遠不會說我其實很早知道了，直到你親口說出來的那天。最近真的有種受夠了的感覺，到最後剩下的才是真正會陪你到永遠的人，只是也要學會去接受這個殘酷的事實。

contrast

2011-04-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

if you are one of my closely friends,you sure know that i have joined handball team and represented my school for handball competition in the past two years..it was not an easy task,we practised it under the hot sun everyday,we joined a camp and practised the whole day,let the sun burned our skin,everytimes after practising,i would feel exhausted and my hand could not hold a pen properly..joining this game has brought many memories to me,sweet and bitter=) actually my topic here is just want to tell you how dark i became after joining handball team

so terrible right?==no doubt,it is my leg T.T i can tell you i was really quite dark during the period,i am a person who will become dark easily after being exposed under the sun just for a while..since i was exposed to the sun everyday for a long period,i have become very dark,no joking!i was really extremely dark!why there were two colours on my leg?haha..because i was wearing socks when i practised handball,so the bottom part which protected by my socks and shoes remains fair as before=D i looked very ugly when i became dark,so after finish the competition,i was so hardworking to take care my face.i have used many skin care products before and i know which product is suitable for me,so i used many products everyday and spent a lot of money in my skin care and body care products..now,here is my leg

haha..is it as fair as before?^^ actually i have spent one year to whiten my legs,but i have just spent 1-2 months to whiten my face=D my face was getting fairer obviously..although my skin still not consider as very fair now,but at least not dark too,that is enough for me=)

My cup of tea

2011-04-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

Yoo seung ho <3

NOOB

2011-04-04T23:14:00.004+08:00

actually i have so many things want to write here,but i am so lazy and i am not feeling like share with all of you,since those are unhappy matters,they will affect your mood,or even my mood,so i better dont write out,and maybe i will write here,but save as draft,what a good way=D well,my mood was down for so many days,reasons?i think too much== now,i am upset because of my scholarship,one word to describe myself-STUPID..i think i am the only one don't know to apply scholarship after getting a good result,I realized it yesterday,but many of them have expired,I just feel like want to kill myself,after I got my spm result,I do nothing for my future!nobody tell me that I can apply for so many scholarships,my parents have no any knowledge about it..I just feel so wasted,I struggle to get this result but I do not do something for my future and my parents,I have the chance not to be their burden but why i can so stupid?why??!!! Why I always so blur in everything,why i am just like a frog at the bottom of a well?many things I don't know,even just a common sense.why I want to get mad of this?because i want to study without spending too much money of my dad,I wan to let my parents know I can continue my study with my effort instead of taking their money,I am not just will take money from them,I am not just will talk with them when I need money,I study so hard is because of I want to have a brighter future,so that i can provide them a better life,I know sometimes I have neglected them and make them feeling bad,I know sometimes we are lack of communication,but what I have done is not for myself,is for my family.maybe I am not definitely can get the scholarship after I apply for it,but at least I have tried! Now I do not try any of them,I apply NONE of them! How ridiculous i am! I have lost the chances,I don't know computing well,this is the point,I don't know how to search something or online done something,I always demand the help from others..I just know,i am too NOOB!

And I really damn HATE someone! I hope that I can scold you badly with many rude words!you don't know how much I hate you!you make me feel annoying and please stay away from me!nobody will like to hurt someone without any reason!so please think properly what you have done make me so hate you!I have tried my best to be friend with you,but you keep doing something make me get mad,I cannot stand for you anymore!you ruin my life!!!! Please get lost!what the hell!! You have stepped over my limit and I won't be polite to you anymore.don't think that you are important to me,you are nothing for me! F! #%^*+=!!!!!!!!!!

short hair

2011-03-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

=DDDD

my nails

2011-03-24T21:08:00.003+08:00

my ugly fingers xDD

my nails are coloured with light pink..it made by the professional,i visited the nail's house and made it=)

reward

2011-03-24T20:51:00.003+08:00

since i perform well in my spm,i got some rewards from my parents,friends and colleagues..my dad gave me cash,not a small amount,so i quickly save into bank already..my mom bought me a pair of spectacles and a rm30 reload card,my colleagues treat me eat,actually they always treat me eat== thanks you all so much=D and someone who i just know him not more than 2months,he gave me an ipad!i was surprised and refused to take it,because it not a chea stuff and i am not very close with him..but he insist on giving me,i request the help from my mom,my mom have no ways to fix it too,then she called me just take it..at the moment,i felt scared and hope there is someone could protect me and beside me,i scare to face such matter,i am not good in settling this too,so i really hope that someone can help me,i really need to be protected=( i just hope that after i start my college life,i wont be cheated easily,my theachers and friends have advised me so much times,DONT TRUST PEOPLE EASILY!!and they hope i will be careful,i hope i can be alert too!
anyway,thanks for your present=) but i not so clear how to fuction it==

its cover..i think i will buy a new cover for it

anyone can teach me how to use this?==

will i blind?

2011-03-24T12:44:00.002+08:00

i am frustrated now..just now i went to check my eyes,the result shock me
before:left-550,right-550
now:left-800,right-725
my mood is quite down,will i blind?

spm result 23.3.2011

2011-03-24T00:49:00.008+08:00

today i got my spm result..i have been waiting for this day long long time,finally,i took it..when i reached school,the teacher not allow me went in due to my short pants,lol..then i went to seejie house change a long pants and went back to school..the teachers appeared after we waited for so long period..teacher intended to announce those students who get 6As and above..first,she announce those who get straight As,there are 8 students get straight As,i was so nervous while waiting her to announce the result,my heart gonna stop pumping at the moment,quite nervous and i held kahkah's hand tightly..actually before teacher announce it,ah bei have told me i get straight As,she saw my result already,but i scared she saw wrong,so i was still very nervous and cannot totally fong sam..after teacher had announced 4students,i was scared,because there was just remains 4 students who get straight As,suddenly i heard teacher call my name"ng chu han",i was extremely excited!! i walked to the stage and maybe too nervous,i almost pk on the stage,luckily i did not== i received the result slip from principle with my trembling hands..when i went down from the stage,a group of friends were there and congratulated me,i was so gek dong and touch,when someone said that i gonna cry already,my tears dropped down uncontrollabel,i was too excited..i never cry because of too happy,this was the first time,the spm result really so important to me,not how useful it is,is because of i put all my effort on it,in past 2years,i studied by using crazy method until my family could not stand for it,now i am PROUD of myself,i have proved something,finally i success,I DO IT WELL!there is 100marks as full marks for each paper,but i can say that i had put 200% effort on each paper..before i get my result,i was so worried..because i felt that i am an unlucky girl,everytimes i cannot get full As in those important examination,such as UPSR and PMR,i got 6A1B and 7A1B,i scared the same thing will happen on me again,but today,i have proved that i am not an unlucky girl,the god saw my effort!i want to thank some of my school teachers,my tuition teachers-ah ken,ah mark,saimun,tau han,ah moi and yuri,my friends who helped me before,my family..especially my tuition teachers,i really quite thank them,they helped me a lot..today i gave a hug to those who request it from me,no matter they are boys or girls,because i was happy and i appreciate their congratulations=) i hugged RIING most tight,she called me cry out,then i really hugged her and cried out,i dont know how to describe my mood,is a feelings like so touch,and i realised that i felt warm when i was hugging her..here is my spm result slip,somehow i cannot rotate it..so you just turn your computer and see it xD

thanks everyone who congratulates me,THANKS!those who get an unsatisfied result,i hope you all can cheer up and keep on moving,there are still a lot of challenges waiting for you,so try your best to forget this pain and study more hard for your future..those who get an excellent result,i congratulate you all,well done my friends!=)

anyway,before i had decided to study a level,but after today,my final decision is study ACCOUNTING DIPLOMA,in ktarc..i have got some opinions from teachers and friends,so i choose this..i hope i can do it well.

my spm result:
BM- A-
BI- A-
BC- A-
Moral- A
Sejarah- A+
Physics- A+
Chemistry-A+
Addmaths- A+
Maths- A+
Account- A+

yoong xin and bel,sorry that i did not find you,because i was waiting my result that time,i was anxious it,but thanks for finding me=D and ah bei,thank so much for telling me my result=)

my dream

2011-03-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

今天看到一则新闻关于Queen Elizabeth邮轮,很多照片,我看了马上爱上它>< 我从来没有坐过邮轮,真的很想试下在里面的感觉,这个邮轮是超豪华的,如果有机会坐的话我一定兴奋死 =D 这些它的照片,还有其他邮轮的

照片有限,但是它真的很美很美!!!希望有那么一天我可以到邮轮里玩玩><

love song

2011-03-15T19:07:00.004+08:00

梁心颐 Lara – 我不再怕

分手快一年了
头发剪短了
手机也换了新号码
现在的我不太一样

我不再怕
少了你的晚餐

少了你温度的小毛毯
现在的我有长大有长大
虽然想起你心还是会揪
虽然深夜并没那么好过
勇敢是我对自己的承诺
再想念也不能回头
一直不敢去面对的寂寞
习惯就好也没那么难受
也许我该谢谢你离开我
让我找到真正的自由

翻着我的日记
从分手的那页
到晚上睡前写的心情
我的笔画慢慢坚定
我才领悟
曾害怕的食物
像开车或对付一只小虫
不知不觉变得轻松
虽然想起你心还是会揪
虽然深夜并没那么好过
勇敢是我对自己的承诺
再想念也不会回头
一直不敢去面对的寂寞
习惯就好也没那么难受
其实我该谢谢你离开我
让我找到真正的自由

梁静茹&宇恒 - 微笑的理由

哭在我肩上痛快地哭
我安静感觉你眼泪的温度
希望对你有些帮助

你总是轻易地把我看清楚
就算日子还有些辛苦
有你陪伴也很幸福

沉默微笑哭泣拥抱
只要紧紧陪在我的身旁
你的脆弱你的难过
我都懂

最难过时候就会想起你
其实你已经给了我勇气
不管今天或明天各分东西
我们都要活得比现在更美丽
生命里有人来了又离去
我们都还是老脾气
难得坚持也是种幸福
到最后我们都找到了
微笑的理由

看着你我自然就会知道
就知道生命中有太多不同的味道
一起寻找最真实的笑

最难过时候就会想起你
其实你已经给了我勇气
不管今天或明天各分东西
我们都要我们都要
活得比现在更美丽
你给了我勇气

生命里有人来了又离去
我们都还是老脾气
难得坚持也是种幸福
到最后我们都找到了
我们都找到了
微笑的理由

2011-03-14T23:30:00.001+08:00

心情很糟
该怎么办 T.T

miao

2011-03-13T15:26:00.006+08:00

昨天喵来我家教我做一些女人的东西
不
应该是女孩
表面上好像很容易
做起来是难到拿我的命
对我来说难罢了
因为我没有女生应该有的基因
所以我真的不会做T.T
我很期待我完成的那一刻
因为太感动了
我竟然可以做出一个这样的东西
其实做做下也蛮好玩的
不过浪费很多时间
喵用一个小时完成
我用2个小时做完一面罢了T.T
我不会告诉你们是什么东西
因为这是秘密 =xx
你快快再来啊
我要快点做完它
不会不专心了的xDDD

miao <3

miao and my brother <3

she is so pretty and kind..my brother and i love her always =DD

i had my dinner with christine at momo,saw wen li there,loke momo work at momo,haha,so funny xD after we went to watch movie with her trend's friends..RANGO..ermm,for me,it is not so nice,the story is 99% similar with the GUILLIVER'S TRAVEL,and it is a bit boring..my day was ended up with busyness again=]

lady's trip II

2011-03-10T17:05:00.010+08:00

lets continue my lady's trip..here are some photos which finally uploaded by synz..well,i will tell you the sory about these photos.

my head was quite pain and i was not pretend or making any pose== you know why?once we reached the hotel,i fought with my rudely baby,she scratched my hair forcefully,i felt my head so pain and i saw her hand holding something >>>>>>>>>>

my pity hair!!!! T.T i was damn angry and of course i would take revenge on her,hahaha xDD if you want to know how i treat her,you can ask her to show you all her hand,but for sure now it/they are disappear already,i believe that it will appear again when i meet up with her =D

baby always want to capture my emo face,and the most important is,i show my right face more than left face,because my right face look better:D

i taught baby to do a lady pose,becuase she always open the leg and very man like that when taking photo,lol!thats why i called her 收数婆 xp

my ladies =DD

my right face again,this is purposely captured 1,to show my high nose xDD(perasan-ing)

now is the individual 1

sin hui

not me =x

jia yin

wen yee

see jie

i was 38-ing==

i have to go now,so bye!<3

hopeless

2011-03-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

it is raining heavily and my life is hopeless

xiao qiu

2011-03-06T19:30:00.005+08:00

我很开心地宣布我电话可以upload照片了！！无端端可以了，我没有修过，很奇怪吧== 昨天他们来我家时拍的

晚餐时间。。shukhi

我姐。。从来不会给我拍他的脸==

今天去庆祝了xiao ying,花名小丘的生日，她生日是妇女节哦（8/3）my buddy=D 我们去吃刷刷锅，再看电影。。sanctum..not bad not bad。。我很像看black swan的，jusco竟然没有！=（

你们有没有发现到？我的笑容是慢慢消失的，哈哈=p 我知道很无聊==那时等xiao ying来载我，等到太无聊了== 原谅我的白痴T.T

kok eng，我的贝宝。。我吃饭，他付钱 xD 桌面上的纸巾清一色是我用的。。我的专长是用纸巾，是又用不是又用，给我看到我就会死命用，也不知道为什么，所以和家人吃饭时爸爸会故意把纸巾收起来，不给我用== 餐厅的叻，他都要藏==

丽珊和敏儿，珊很专心的在吃哦（问你爸有没有想念我，问麦你妈，以后我有钱了请他们吃大头 xpp)

这张敏儿很像babi doll,很可爱^^

我最乖，没有染头发=p 我们3个

当当！寿星女，小丘，生日快乐哦=）
虽然毕业了，但是重要的日子还是一定要聚在一起
很开心依然可以顺利地庆祝好朋友的生日
哪怕一起吃个东西也好=）

saturday

2011-03-05T23:05:00.004+08:00

今晚
我亲爱的镟姐姐带我去吃晚餐
她每次都很怕我饿坏
吃饱了都来陪我
伟大T.T
还有他的靓仔哥哥（记得给你哥看xD)
很好人
做我们的司机
也是我一半的哥哥啦=p
和你们吃过团圆饭
大家就是一家人了嘛xDDD
我去年的团圆饭是和阿姐的家人吃的哦=]
本来想找麦dongdong的
但是姐说她今天不得空
大忙人
还有shukhi哦
好久没见面了
不要一直zat我
我很伤心的叻
还记得我们在手球camp时很多心事谈=]
2of my husbands came my house today
for the sunsilk report
my lovely fang-gie and wai-gie
we have planned for something
and they forced me to treat them eat T.T
i am just a kid
don't bully me
they came my house to teach me use email
haha
they helped me type something
forward email
check email
and delete email
but actually i didn't learn it
i just called them help me to do it
hahaha
i am not interested in computing=(
my house was full of screaming and laughing
especially the soowai
really super duper 38
and she can sot blak until kept hitting me
although she look like so thin and lady
but actually she is a violent girl
TERRIBLE!!
no offence anymore wai-gie T.T
i am so panai in translating hokkian 1
because when yenfang was talking ph with her brother by using hokkian
i could translate it into chinese well xDD
i can consider to be an interpreter.

a day is passed
so fast @.@
i am wondering when is the announcement of spm result
i hope i can get it soon=[

-

2011-03-05T15:26:00.005+08:00

in the past few days was bad days for me
actually not very bad
at least i still can comfort myself well
seem like so many people quit their jobs in this month
but i work until MAY
lol
i am not really like working life
i prefer study to work
but i am so lifeless without working
stay in home the whole day
sleep,eat,watch
nothing else can do anymore
and this will cause me become a FATTY girl=(
finally
i am NOT POOR now
POOR have been stayed way from me
haha =D
of course i am not rich too
but at least i can eat whatever i want to eat now
no need suffer from starving like before=(
and
something frustrate me
i CANNOT dye my hair =[=[=[
someone break his promise again
nevermind
i can don't want to dye my hair
but another thing which i desire for
i MUST get it within this month!

miss you guys=] (could you find me in this photo?xp)

so sorry that i don't need LOVE in this moment
it just will bring unhapiness to me
so please stay away from me.

lady's trip

2011-03-01T18:13:00.009+08:00

my cousin's wedding dinner,it is a big matter for us..before went to the dinner,my hair was as below

after reached there,i tied my hair,because i was not used to see myself become so mature/old due to the curly hair

i am so lazy to describe more about the wedding dinner,i just can say that everyone was make up themselves well on that day and it is an awesome wedding dinner

next,i am going to tell you the lady's trip with my friends..actually we were not went there for playing,we just went for enjoying,relaxing and gossiping
on the first day,my parents fetched us to there..as we all are girls,for sure we would go for shopping..skip skip skip..then,we watched a movie called i am number 4..it is a nice movie!wenyee who sat beside me was so pity,i held her hand tightly because i was so scare @.@ she totally cannot move her hand..there was 1part about the main character went into a ghost house with his girlfriend,a ghost suddenly appear!i shouted out unexpectedly..the point is there was nobody shouted== luckily my voice not so loud>< skip skip skip..after finish movie,we went for a walk at outside..the weather not as cold as last time i came..they just sit there but i kept talking and laughing,self-high== and i fought with sinhui again,long time never fight with her,cherish the moment=) skip skip skip..we back to hotel and started our supper-noodles cup..when we were playing cards,i saw my watch and told them"4something already leh"they answer me"har??!!you didn't lie us?so LATE already?we still full of energy!"i decided to sleep so that i could wake up earlier on the next day..we all 5persons slept on a bed..we cannot move or even turned our bodies..we share our secret with one another but actually all just around a specific person of us..i slept at 5something while the others late than me,except sinhui,she was the first person who fell asleep..when i woke up in the morning,i saw sinhui slept on a chair,pity baby=( i "gu jit"jiayin to wake her up but she ignore me and continue sleeping== then,we had no idea want to do what..i was so tired and had no energy to play anymore..i cannot live without sleeping!! i kept yawning the whole day..sinhui asked me"why you so quiet?why you emo?you are annoying transport problem?" LOL!baby,i was not unhappy,i just felt tired..wenyee so bad,she said that she hope i will tired all the time so that i will not so noisy T.T finally,we went to a childish place,let's the photo tell you where it is

wow!so cool man! xppp

inside the cable car..seejie was so excited and kept saying that she was so scare..lol..i had no feelings..

they love my shirt ;DD

sinhui not dare to move at all at the beginning..she said she quite SCARE==

sexy wenyee

the bus ticket was sold out due to we bought it late..those uncle simply raised the prices,what the frog!!!! luckily there was a uncle gave us a reasonable price..they all were so alert except me,because i was the only one who slept inside the car,they not dare to sleep and all standby for jumping car== actually i was alert too,i did copy down the car nombor,just i was exhausted only will sleep inside the car..finally we reached home safely wat!congratulation to us^^ conclusion is,i cannot stay alive without SLEEPING!
thats all.

suddenly found out this photo in my little brother's handphone,that is my handsome cousin

maybe will upload more photos next time..those photos were inside jiayin and sinhui's ph,i need to steal it from them first=D

选择

2011-03-01T17:33:00.002+08:00

因为baby的status
令我有所领悟
而我
也做出了决定
我选了前者=D
一个不幸福的决定
选后者我就能得到幸福
但是我过不到自己那关
最后
我败给了前者
我选了它
我选了
不可能的幸福=)

我开始犹豫应不应该读 A level
烦！！！

-

2011-03-01T13:29:00.002+08:00

我的部落格的draft里有137个post
大部分都是emo的
有些是我锁部落的那段时间写的
有些是之前公开过的
里面记载了我之前的一点一滴
重新看回
依然很感触

上个星期和朋友去云顶放松了2天1夜
我老爸说这个星期有免费的房间
又叫我去==
我称它为第2个家是对的
我又要找人陪我去了T.T

去云顶玩的post下次才写
现在是趁break time上来写写罢了
最近的心情很复杂
我被一种东西缠上了=(

2011-02-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

awake

2011-02-22T23:40:00.002+08:00

7:44p.m
我睡着了
自从做了这份工
我的午觉时间延迟了
总是在7，8点左右
然后9点起床
很不健康的午觉
因为过后就很难入睡了

很久没有这样的感觉了
有很久吗？
不知道
就像我说的
我很久没有不开心了
我的眼泪仅仅为了我的她而流
没有别的事了
所以我觉得满足
这样就够了

我有1本书
1本只有我在超级难过无助才会派上用场的书
又或是郁闷到无处可宣泄而用的书
我靠它来安慰自己
帮助自己
我很久没动了
1个月吧？
不知道
因为我在里面只写想写的东西
没有时间日期地点
我只知道我少碰它了
里面都是关于她的
大部分
因为她才有那个能力让我这么地伤心绝望，却又无奈
是她让我辛苦得不能再压抑
而开始了这本书的生命
今天
我居然写了不关于她的东西在里面

8：35p.m
我惊醒了
我起来看了电话的时间
又睡在床上
很累
在半睡半醒中
我考虑着继续睡到天亮还是马上起床
我好像有人忽然打来吵醒下我
因为每次我一讲电话就自然会变得很精神
不知道为什么
很突然的
我想起了那一个伤口
真的很突然
它总是很突然地出现
每次都毫无预料的
就像之前那样
它的突然对我来说是一种折磨
明明我并不是那么地在乎不是吗？
明明我就没事了不是吗？
当初你有能力划下一个那么深的伤口
在我不察觉的情况下
我已经很惊讶
现在却依然可以扰攘着我
也是我始料未及的
是我太不了解自己了吗？

又出现了
画面不多
只有几个
却是那么刺痛的画面
承诺
没错
就是承诺
一直浮现在我脑海
我没忘记过
也无法忘记那些承诺

[那么久了
想尽办法
快要成功时
无声无息
走了
为什么
之前又要那样
为什么
后来又会那样
为什么
努力这么多又是为了什么
我不明白
为什么
要这样]

我不知道我的心到底想怎样
不知道

我就这样起床了
精神了
不睡了
被一个回忆叫醒了我

“过去了“

9:18p.m
我清醒了。

i hope that this is the last post i write about IT in my future.

心
就像玻璃
很脆弱
一个不小心
就碎了

有些伤口
不会痊愈
但不要触碰

.....

2011-02-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

first time i saw you wearing it=) =) =)
you will not know how excited i am.

看了2篇文章
不一样的部落
心情变得很奇怪
难以形容的感觉

should i open my door?

其实我很矛盾下
明明知道这个部落是公开的
就预了会给别人看到
但是每次听到认识的人说看到我的部落
我就觉得很paiseh
我也不懂paiseh什么==
就是很奇怪的感觉咯
所以我从来不在facebook status写我update了blog
怪人==

最近有很多节目和照片的
但是我放不上来
所以就不写了
很懒

^^

2011-02-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

halo
i come here again=D
today is a nice day^^
actually i am always in a good mood from cny until now
a good news for myself=)
now the only thing make me feel annoying just is THAT
ya
right
just is because of THAT matter=(
sigh
i hope myself don't think it anymore
i really don't want step into the circle anymore
simple is happy
everytimes i meet up with friends i will be very happy
and i am really glad that my dad allow me to go out
becuase i often go out after graduate
dad,i really quite love you=D
i will sangsang xingxing d
no need worry about me
i will be the good daughter and love you always^^

today me,munyee,kherchin,xiaoying and xiaobai went 1u celebrate munyee and kherchin birthday
not a big celebration
simple and without candle
then they pretend blowing the cake==
when they made wish
bi still said "wan shi ru yi"
omg@.@
she still in cny mood==
we have captured many photos
xiaobai too pro la
he and bi kept teaching me do many poses
but i am too stupid
make them laugh nonstop
i have no potential=(
hahaha
dear wear so sexy today=D
i wish both of you happy always
most important is dun emo
and i hope i can celebrate your birthday every year
both of you=)
after that we went to yongjie's house
5B gathering BBQ
some of them play mahjong
some of them play "21 dian"
very nan de is
i did not GAMBLE!!!!
hahaha
i just chat with friends
and drank a little bit beer
and chai mui with emo baby xD
she kept losing
most of them unhappy cause of love matter
i hope they can cheer up and time will prove that you can live without him
gayao!!!!!

another nice day again^^
love to spend my time with my lovely friends
i just need a simple life
no argue,no quarrel with my dearest friends
that is enough

THAT matter
temporary put aside
recently what i like to say and always say it is
shun qi zi ran

once again
happy belated birthday to dear
and
happy birthday to bi
coming soon=)

可惜

2011-02-18T19:59:00.002+08:00

真的好可惜
你知道吗
你和我相处的方式是我最向往的
我最想要的
应该是说sms的你才对
你很了解我
不是每一个人都可以做到的
我们只相处过1年吧
但是你就是让我觉得你了解我
我说的东西
不用解释太多
你会知道我的心情我的想法
我告诉你我的事
往往会得到我很满意的回应
你的安慰鼓励都能让我觉得欣慰些
你总是很真诚地听我说
然后总是很真诚地打下每一个字回我
我不开心时
你从来不会敷衍我
你总是那么地相信我支持我
你甚至会比我还激动
有什么问题
你都会尽量地帮我
你知道吗
我理想的对象就是要这样
这么舒服地相处方式
但是我们见面时的相处我没那么喜欢
因为你会变得不一样了
我常在想
要是我喜欢的对象能像你那样了解我那该多好
真的很可惜
我和你不来电
有感觉的相处不来
没感觉的却是我想要的相处方法
你是我曾经在无助沮丧时在我身旁的朋友
所以我会珍惜这份友谊
希望我们会是一辈子的朋友=）

LOVE

2011-02-17T17:10:00.003+08:00

honestly
recently i am kinda busy @.@
i have been changed a new job
work at my house downstairs
no need annoy for transport problem
i am quite like this job
because there has good staffs and ah tao =D
now i am still learning and try my best to adapt the new working place
i don't want myself feel so paiseh all the time
i want to be myself
i want communicate with them naturally ><
sometimes can take breakfast with ring jie
i love to chit chat with her
and i am willing to tell her my sam xi
our dating place is always the same-gou lou
hahaha xD

i less will share my love matter at here
because this blog is public 1
so many spy==
today i do share a little bit with you all=D

现在的我
单身
没有特别想要拍拖
有时难免会被感动
难免有点动心的感觉
但那不是爱
就只是一下子的感觉
说到底
我这个人就是不怎么适合拍拖
我不知道一个男生是怎么喜欢上一个女生
也不知道你喜欢我是喜欢我的什么
人家说喜欢一个人没有理由
或许吧
但是我觉得我好像还没遇到
我还没遇到一个让我没理由爱上的人
好感的是有
可以考虑的是有
但不是没理由的爱上
也不是很深刻地爱上
和一个男生一起之前
我总是会想很多
真的很多
我知道这不太好
毕竟顾虑太多真的不好
但是我就是这样
至少目前的状况看来
有3个最基本的条件是你们都犯的
这几句纯粹给“他们“看的
1.口花花
2.性格不合，沟通不到
3.没有真正地相处过，互相不了解
最重要的是
感觉
感觉的东西很奇妙
有就是有
没有就是没有
如果你要知道我拒绝你的理由
我一定可以给到你
你想要知道的
我都可以告诉你
如果你没问
我也不会主动去说
但是你要明白
那并不代表我默认你
而是我不知道怎么去告诉你
我不是那种会因为某人喜欢我而避开他的人
我可以继续和你当朋友
就算没有爱情
我还是保持我们的友情
我不喜欢尴尬的感觉
所以我会尽量当没事发生过一样
有些问题我不知怎么答
我就不答跳过
好啦
大概就这样
完毕.

你们大概会奇怪我为什么会写这篇东西吧
因为最近有点不知该怎么办
该怎么做的感觉
只好把我的想法写在这里
希望我自己知道自己在想什么
不会做错决定

*thanks to mr.kok hian
i am really so like it
虽然不是什么贵重的东西
但是没想到你说到做到
很久没有看到有男生会兑现承诺的了
THANKS^^

wish

2011-02-13T22:01:00.001+08:00

放孔明灯时我许下3个愿望
1.spm straight A
2.身体健康
3.和家人关系好

我放的3首歌都是我的心情
或许很快我就可以换歌了=D

-

2011-02-11T15:02:00.002+08:00

why you give me such response
why you don't appreciate my heart
why you want treat me like that
do you know my feelings?
do you consider my feelings?
i am still beg you for wearing it
sigh
what can i say?
speechless
i don't know what can i do anymore

i want to take care myself

2011-02-10T15:11:00.002+08:00

i tell myself i must take care my eyes
T.T
during cny
i go out everyday except chu4,sunday
that day when i woke up
one of my eyes cannot open and very pain
i was so worry
i kept using eyedrop but it was useless
finally i decided to stay in home alone
i slept until 4something
when i woke up
there is still nobody in home
i was uneasy
i cannot stand for the loneliness
i am indeed a person who is not independent=(
my eye hasn't recover
but i still call my parents for fetching me go to my grandmother's house
when i reached there
i was just continue sleep==
my parents fetch me back at the night
i sleep again until the next day
luckily my eye was nothing and it can open well on the next day
休息是为了走更长远的路
希望我的眼睛永远都会没事
用一整天的休息+睡眠换回我健康的眼睛
值得！

yesterday when i received your call
i was so touch
you know why?
because i was just finish crying cause of my mom
i was sad-ing
when you told me about that matter
i was so grateful to you
but i don't know how to say thank you to you
i am really glad that i have you this friend
thank for helping me to solve my problem
although manybe it is not 100% works
but i was touch
I LOVE YOU <3

我觉得我真的很幸福
我有很真诚的朋友
真挚的友谊
你们对我的疼爱
我的感激是说不出的
谢谢你们.

=)

2011-02-09T15:58:00.002+08:00

我哥的post暂时不能放上来
因为我放不到照片
我电话跌过无数次
有毛病也不出奇
因为我很不回保护
所以
就暂时搁置先啦

现在哦
干爹在我旁边打麻将和抽烟
我问他为什么要抽烟
他说输钱嘛==
为什么输钱要抽烟
抽了就会赢？==
重点是我很讨厌抽烟的人在我旁边
烟一直飘过来
我的抵抗力不强
所以我很怕吸2手烟

最近过得不错
没有什么不开心的事
除了和妈妈吵架拉
这是改变不了的事实
整个新年也很充实
和很多的朋友都见面了
但是一直不能见到BI
唉
很开心和小学朋友一起的时候
每一次都让我觉得回到从前
回到我最开心的那段时间
可惜那天WENYEE没去
幸好还有vivian陪我
我很希望
我们那一班会一直联络
一直好下去
我真的很想念在国外的你
我很希望你还是在乎我的
我还在等你回来找我的那一天
我依然是那么地重视你

昨天开始
我有那么一点不开心
一点
我真的不知道我应该怎么做
我应该怎么办
最后
我还是决定了
全部都是朋友
全部
都是好朋友
依然是朋友
差一点我就掉进去了
差一点我就成功放下我的执著了
结果
现在都变回原形了
我不否认
我真的有那么一点难过
一点
为什么会这样
我不想伤害你们的
我真的不知道会这样
这样的结果
我并不高兴
因为我受伤了
我要做出的决定
也会伤害到你们
对不起

我不喜欢承诺
因为承诺都是谎言

不好意思
emo的一篇
如果尊重我
不要问我
我没有不开心=)

感动？

2011-02-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

一件小事
就能温暖我的心
感动了我
那天下午
我伯伯打包了午餐给我
2个包+milo kosong
重点是 MILO KOSONG
我只是和他吃过几次午餐
叫过2次milo
他就知道我不喝奶
喜欢喝milo
而且是要milo kosong
温暖=）

有时候一些小细节，小习惯被注意到
会很感动
一个小举动
能让我很窝心=）
有些人
就算相处了很久
都未必知道你的喜好
这
就是体贴？
就是细心？
^^

working life

2011-01-31T23:58:00.005+08:00

finally i finish working in midvalley
it was so tired but actually had much fun too
i feel lucky that i have a not bad geh supervisor
i never get scolded by him although my presentation was not very good
and i still kept kidding with him
almost gek sei him
when i told fang-gie and wai-gie about the story
they laughed nonstop and beh tahan me
hahaha :D
they said i will become super 38 around 10.30p.m
we make a lot of fun in ktm
sweet memories between us =D

dai po,husb,2 lai xDD

3of us..fang-gie,me,wai-gie

me and darling fang-gie <3

me and vivian,a banana..friendly and polite girl,she promote brands inner shine,accompany me always=)

li li..pretty girl=) we share so much things with each other and i like to chat with her..she promote liese

xue li..took every break with her =D and she told me much thing too

january pass lu
just in a blink of eyes
so fast @.@
thx for those visitors who purposely come find me,accompany me or even fetch me=DD
i haven get my salary=(
maybe tomorrow
after cny maybe will change job too
fang-gie & wai-gie
i promise that i will wake up earlier,put my ph beside me and wont be late next time=(
i am so SORRY let u all waiting me for the past few days

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY GOR EDWARD NG KA WAI
next post u will be the character =DDD

*hate-chubby face

2011-01-26T22:21:00.003+08:00

i am SERIOUSLY HATE my CHUBBY face!!!!
anyone can teach me how to "keep fit"???
really so sad =(
before i can accept it because it is still acceptable
but now
it is SERIOUSLY chubby
SERIOUSLY FAT!!!!
help me T.T

2011-01-25T23:40:00.004+08:00

finally i am free to update my blog
last friday face some problems in my job
make me upset the whole day=(
luckily i solve it in the end
i change to work at guardian le,and friday need to work too
work at guardian is far better than work at carrefour
because at carrefour nobody will chat with me
but at guardian
luckily i met a promoter who just stand beside me
same age with me
we got many things can chat=)
but i dunno whether she will continue work on this coming saturday and sunday
i am still waiting for her message
if she din accompany me
my mouth will vr busuk again(never talk the whole day)

很遗憾
我一直看不到你的忏悔
我还在等
有时候不是潇洒就代表真的没有错

有些回忆是无法抹杀的
但是终究还是要面对现实?

last thursday went midvalley with wei lun,siew wei,siew yin and munyee
actually is want help them choose cny shirt
but at last they din buy dou anything
i bought a shirt==
cny i am gonna fully booked xDDD
so who wanna book me need fast fast register lo,haha

ah bei,i will eat papaya start from today=D
u buy for me la,haha

munyee,love is not everything,of course when u need me i will stay beside u,time will prove tat u are deserved for better guys,他们不值得你为他们掉任何一滴眼泪=) cheer cheer cheer

倾家荡产买了2个好朋友的礼物
虽然这个用词有点夸张 xD
但是在很穷的时候是将用的拉
哈哈
期待和他们庆祝的那一天
那么就可以见到他们拉^^
miss my 英语老师=( ( u know i know xD)

其实本来是有蛮多东西写的
但是忘记完了==
也好
学会忘记不愉快的了
不过快乐的也忘了==
哈哈
随便拉
晚安=)

update

2011-01-17T19:14:00.002+08:00

一个星期又过去咯
做了2个星期的工
一个字
累
一句话
揾钱艰难
星期6
感谢某人陪我站了几个小时
再陪我break了才回去
没有工钱地陪我站
真的很谢谢你T.T
知道你站到很累了拉
哈哈
祝你interview成功=)
那个avarta
2天来找我都用那么粗俗的话问候我
halo
我是淑女来的叻xD
没有参synz就改邪归正了
我很斯文的咯=D
那天我只带了rm5去吃东西
用了rm1吃早餐
avarta一直吵我去他的sushi店吃
我就问他:"rm4可以吃到什么？"
avarta:"一大碟ginger+白开水"==
不要逼我去吃了咯
我真的没有钱啦！！！
还有
chee kien讲那个rm4的饭我找不到叻
big apple隔壁只有rm30 above的东西吃
没有rm4的饭！==
咏欣也很有我心
最近都会想到我，找我
希望你会乖乖听我的话
放下吧=）
那些特地来找我的人
我都很感谢你们
陪我打发时间
因为我真的是非一般的无聊+闷
换了新的supervisor
一天spot check我2次
恐怖到
偷懒都减少了
相同的
时间好像过得更慢了

因为你的一句话
我恨他
也因为你的一句话
我放下

去了ns的朋友
很对不起
因为我星期6，日比较不得空
所以无法和你们好好的聊
但是你们只有这2天有电话用><
没关系
你们的关心和信息我都收到了
其实应该是我叫你们好好照顾自己才对的
我会take care的拉
不必担心我
你们要开心阿^^

比起中学的生活
现在的我好多了
所以
我没后悔毕业
只会挂念我关心的人和关心我的人.

2011-01-12T16:28:00.004+08:00

i-city 的一间restaurant..why i want to capture it?cause of its name-blue apple
my email address,blog address,facebook all use "blue applex" as the name..the 1st time i saw this name in other place and some blue apples draw on the wall,i like the decorations but the service there...mmm...not so good

did u see the 3cartoon?i create by myself,haha..when i was attending an account class,teacher was explaining how to memorise the formula,but it was too boring,i drew somethings on the paper to sober myself so that wont fall asleep xD cute bo?haha

我很想念我的补习中心，补习老师，补习朋友，补习的一切，因为那边给我的一切回忆都是美好的，超级想念=（
pusat tuition indah,PTI,excellent tuition centre,excellent teachers,excellent students:D haha

today rest
huh
finally can rest

BEL luilui
messi get the FIFA金球奖
很开心
虽然不是我的c ronaldo拿
但是messi拿也很开心
我花心女儿的老公==
congratulations!!!^^

幸福的定义是什么？
这是一本小说问的
却让我想了好久
也问了2个人
每个人幸福的定义都不一样呢

小风波

2011-01-11T22:42:00.003+08:00

今天报纸有篇新闻：
10岁小孩差点溺毙
我在现场喔O.O
就在我帮我伯伯做工的工厂
旁边那个小溪就是事发地点啦
我并没有看到小孩沉进水的过程
因为我坐在office都没听到声音
过后出去时是已经把小孩救上来了的
然后我就在旁边看着接下来的过程
小孩已经奄奄一息
几乎没了呼吸
他的朋友很慌张地跑去通知他家人
我一直看着小孩的表情
是的
我什么都没做
那一刻
我真的不知道能做些什么
我可以帮上什么忙
伯伯的工人帮忙把他整个人倒立
拍他的背
这招蛮有效
至少他咳嗽了
他还有气息
他很痛苦地在呻吟
我
就只能看
心里翻腾
因为我没有想过会亲眼看到这种画面
也很无奈地站在那里
邻居都跑来看什么事
其实那边是一个小村那样
所以人不多
我还听到他们一直问救伤车什么号码
我印象中所有事都可以打给999的
但是我又怕说错
所以一句话也没说
我竟然害怕
我们不知道小孩的家人是谁
也没有人懂
过了蛮久一下
终于来了
呼
听说蛮严重的
不过急救后留医
应该很快就可以出院了。。。。。。。。。。。。

珍惜生命
珍惜每一个身边的人

今天做工时情绪很不好
因为某些事某些人
我到底该怎么办

working day

2011-01-11T00:02:00.004+08:00

1月每天都在做工
拜1到5帮我伯伯做
拜6拜日在midvalley的carrefour做sunsilk的promoter
所以都几忙下的
尤其是6&日
是超累的
7早8早爬起来
晚上回到家冲了凉就睡倒了
这次真的超感谢我亲爱的爸爸
大发慈悲给我去midvalley做
他允许的那一刻我是超surprise+excited的咯
每次他批准我出去或是做我想做的事的那一刻
我都是超感动+爱死他的
哈哈
这份工只是1月有做罢了
和几个朋友+my dearly wei一起做的
结果每个人都站不同的地方
害我要偷偷去找ah wei xDDD
做了2天的结论是
-闷，根本都不用promoter的咯，那些人自己来拿他们要的就走掉了，我都不明白做么要promoter的咯==
-累，站一整天是超不好受的，脚酸+麻
-饿，做这个工由于是吃自己的，因为很穷，所以一天都只吃一餐（面包），为了省钱，饿得感觉很难受却无奈，很庆幸1个星期只做2天，如果每天做我绝对暴瘦==
我发现到来光顾我的客人80%都是马来人，15%是外国人+印度人+不懂什么人，5%是华人罢了
害我闷到半死
想讲话又没得讲
我那边是每人管我的
但是身边一个promoter都没有
没人给我讲下话><
结果我就很白痴+放肆地做了一些事 xDDDD (secret)
也有不secret的拉
就是哦
无聊到去收拾麦别的产品
一个一个排
然后去招呼别的客人
帮他们找东西
再和一些不懂什么语言的人谈天
鸡同鸭讲
然后一直傻傻地看着那个人笑==
所以我亲爱的朋友们
如果你们有去midvalley
记得来陪我谈天
不然我口很臭
没有开过口讲话==
拜6拜日才来啊
平时不用来:D
帮我伯伯做的工相反的很轻松
因为他很照顾我啦^^
我要赚钱啊！！！！！
穷的滋味真不好=(

ps:my lovely riing jie got accompany me a while when she was break,thx^^remember find me more,haha,and she called me go her shop keep trying the shoes but no need buy xD i intend to call her help me wear shoes,wear off shoes and pick up shoes =p
and kai lin also take sushi from his shop give me eat,free 1^^thx very much.

my mood

2011-01-04T14:51:00.004+08:00

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
i want work leh!!
bushuang x100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
when only i can start my work?!!!!!!!
i am so POOR now!
and so FREE now!==
rest for whole month and enjoy for whole month le
i am not really like this kind of life
got a bit meaningless
i want to do something to fulfill my life
many things i cannot do by myself
cause of many problems
i need rely on others
but i need to follow their pace and their plan
not according to mine 1
i never blame them
i am just appreciate their help
and angry myself
i haven done anything that i plan before
wth
sigh
nobody can help me =(

我的心是有那么一点点受伤了
用开心cover掉伤心的部分
心情会好些
所以最近的我过得还不错
其实是这几天啦xD
有些事情
不知道要怎么面对.

photo 3

2011-01-04T14:16:00.002+08:00

c'mas eve geh look,with wing..before we went to the curve and waiting si ying come fetch us

went jusco with min er

photo 1,2 and 3 are for the long post before which i said i cannot upload photo
now these all are for the post and finish here=)

088

2011-01-03T13:30:00.005+08:00

昨天去1u庆祝synz的生日
唱k from 1pm until 5sumthg
全部人high到乱喊
不是唱k,是喊k==
我教诗杰跳舞，哈哈
还在那边研究去clubbing的人怎样跳的
我们总共有12个人
me,sinhui,seejie,jiayin,wenyee,kahkah,wailuen,thiamsoon,minghui,junjien,yongjie,jeeseng
昨天唱k蛮贵下的,不过没关系啦，synz的大寿，哈哈
过后我们为了讨论吃什么晚餐讨论了半天
aduii!!!
结果回来kepong吃==

忘记是谁拍了==在我快要笑出来的那一刻拍，技术好到==

我的脸很臭，没有笑容，因为那个avarta啦，拿着电话很久了才拍到，我本来笑到很灿烂的，结果等到变这个样了><

kahkah

jiayin

关眼睛的是阿增 xD

seejie不见了==大合照不在我这边，这是小合照 :D

故意拍到很苍白的效果 xDDDDD

这两张是一样的pose来的，上面比较苍白，下面比较有气色罢了，个人很喜欢这2张

我和寿星女哦
认识了3年吧@.@
不懂是不是
熟了2年
加麦今年第3年
她哦
sotsot的拉
跟我相同之处
emo
去年在学校的日子里
有大部分都是在和她打架骂架度过的
当然每次都是我赢（自豪中 xD)
但是她就是偏偏要惹我==
和她打架的过程蛮激烈的
也是我的回忆
不会忘记=）
有些朋友会录下来
那天看到其中一个短片
很搞笑
果然很有大家姐风范 xD
我替她取过超多花名
多到忘了@.@

last,happy bithday to u baby sinhui
4.1.2010
wish u have a nice day on that day
hope u happy always=)

photo 2

2010-12-31T16:38:00.002+08:00

taking dinner/yamcha with seejie and sinhui + keng sam shi + 38

acting cool,haha,sinhui cannot act model,caz of her height xDDD

i purposely lower down my body to get the same height with her,san fu jor me lo =p

emo emo,my talent :D

baby was crying,i gave her a warm hug

淑女=me 粗鲁=sinhui hahaha

dang dang,3 of us,me,lame mui and baby

photo 1

2010-12-31T16:19:00.006+08:00

之前已经描述过的了
现在补回照片
我老哥不懂几时帮我放进电脑了
无意中发现
就upload上来分享下拉
以下是考完华语当天的照片

me and jiayin,sexy leh XDDDD

we 4 people in wei lon house

this is wei lon,he is fire,i am water =D always zat me and say me 38==

this is thiam soon,famous of his black,haha..obviously i am fairer than him more =D a very nice person

thiam soon capture 1,my face look so big

in jia yin house,see her face,look so funny,she was beh song-ing and grumbling

guess who this is??sha po== lay on the road which is in front of yongjie's house,a bbq was having at there

finish!!!^^

26th n 27th

2010-12-28T14:15:00.002+08:00

some of the pictures in genting
with my bi n xiao qiu
the weather was soooooo cold until i beh tahan
then the next day still catch cold
very pui fuk both of them so strong==
lazy to describe
to see more pictures
u can view my facebook
more photos will be upload by xiao qiu
caz many photos in her camera
thx for joining this trip xiao qiu and planning this trip bi^^
my phone dunno got what problems cnt transfer photo to my pc anymore
so i will less upload photo unless my bro borrow me his ph
hehe
ok la
bye=)

zap bah lang

2010-12-25T14:43:00.003+08:00

由于一些不知名的故障
我无法上传照片
所以只能用文字分享啦
首先
这个假期有3天比较深刻的
第1
当然是考完华语那天
放学后就和一班平时没和他们出去的朋友去1u
颠下玩下走下
然后就去玮伦家等他
慢到一个极限
我和嘉莹两个傻婆玩拍照
玩到没有形象==
不过上传不到，你们没得看啦 xD
过后就去勇杰家待下
等着某些迟到的人
再赶去阿贝的生日会
第2
就是去lame muimui家
再叫麦sin hui baby去dpc吃东西
然后就很白痴地38
拍照
大笑
谈心
最重要的环节是“蜻蜓点水“
baby,u know i know la xDDD
第3
就是昨天啦
下午和敏儿bf去看戏
小人国
不错
很搞笑
内容主要是要表达做人要有自信=）
ubi
你应该去看的咯=D
当天费用都有人请
tq vr much ah gor=)
回家时下大雨
儿在我家待一下后
紧张时刻来了
我要载她回家！！！
这是一件很恐怖的事
有心脏病的都不能坐我的车==
然后就叫wing在旁边陪我驾咯
我是名副其实的路痴
她还一直讲电话
害我紧张到半死
不懂要走那一条路
结果
顺利+安全送我第一个乘客回家啦
然后去dpc练parking
有一辆车也是在那边练
2辆车很白痴地转来转去
哈哈
其实我拿licence都有半年多了
但是技术就是烂==
现在不错啦，有待加强;D
wing
你还是要继续充当我的老师直到我熟为止
谢拉^^
晚上去the curve countdown for christmas
人是多到一个极限
才11点多
那些人就喷到乱
一直中招
还要喷了就跑掉==
一到12点
更严重
完全是头低低在走路
为了保护眼睛><
儿接近12点才来meet
讲了很多通电话才找到她
可是已经要回了
可惜没得一起疯
去停车场时忘了park哪里
几乎走完一层的停车场才找到
然后我就自告奋勇去auto paid啦
结果一出回来
望左望右
惨
我忘了我从哪一个方向来的
两边都有很多车==
想了一下
绕了一下
结果就打电话问他们的车在哪里
我的方向感果然严重差==
过后我们去喝茶然后回家去了
5点多才睡@.@

现在很努力地在找工作
不然真的穷死了
明天和比，小丘去云顶玩啦

weii
i am waiting u find me
u look like so busy T.T
everytimes find u also not free

i miss my best buddies badly.

那天半夜咏欣那个傻婆打给我
蛮吓到的
她不开心哦
讲了接近2个小时的电话
我能帮的就会尽量帮的
加油
珍惜眼前人=）

thx

2010-12-22T16:00:00.002+08:00

很多人叫我放弃
最后我还是选择了我心里想要的
告诉自己
不要轻易放弃
那几年的回忆不能抹杀不是吗
好吧
我就真的去做了
虽然我有我的想法
但是对某些人
就是要有比别人多的礼让
结果
是你的决定
我个人的宗旨
你没有故意做伤害我的事
我就不会放弃你
但是
你的定义不一样
所以
我为我自己尽了的努力不留遗憾
不后悔
因为我做了最大的让步
很可惜
只有一方的努力
我抛开所有事
去想你的事
这是换来得结果
或许你没有想想以后吧
但我有
所以我愿意退
如果你认真想想
自己是不是真的对完呢
是不是真的没有一丝做错呢
你的心
或许只在想对方的不好
但我好和不好都想了
所以我不想它溜走
今天
总算有了答案
有了总结
这是你给我的答案
鼓起的勇气被打碎了
如果你仔细想想我曾经为你做的一切
你会知道你想法有多不公平
我一直不发表任何意见
是因为想保护
但是既然有了决定
就这样吧.

2010-12-17T20:24:00.001+08:00

full of sadness.

Ikano

2010-12-13T13:24:00.005+08:00

yesterday i went to Ikano to seek for some new furniture,we did not buy anything,just went there for comparing the prices of furniture with other places..i recalled some memories,not a good memory..just you and me know that but i hope that this memory will disappear from my mind soon,because i don't like this memory and make me suffering..lalala...after 2hours,we get a conclusion,those furniture are so expensive== we had copied down what we want and the prices,and we kept capturing those pictures to let our house designer see what we want..i think still got a long period only can move to my new house,because now still designing and haven start renovate my new house..i am looking forward to move in :D

my outfit

after that i went to christine's house

while waiting she came back from outside,i was so boring and start self-capturing xD

something is annoying me and i am trying to think a way to solve it

i tied this hair yesterday,bob bob

after i put down my hair,this is the look,so curly

argue with someone yesterday and make me feel unhappy again
i just hope to get FREEDOM from you
i can be obedient and follow what u said
i just have this small demand
i need FREEDOM
please respect me.